no problem bro. Not really a rules issue as far as I'm concerned. More like if you cast your line in the right pond you'll catch more fish
This forum offers help for depression Bi Polar and what ever you may have going on in your life. http://www.suicideforum.com/index.php
Found this one the other day it seems to have links to many sites, forums and phone numbers worldwide. http://unsuicide.wikispaces.com/Online+Suicide+Help+Wiki#.UUbXwZbCh8F
You are the same as your mother, she is dependent on a substance, you are dependent on a substance, neither of you can stand on your own 2 feet, you are both full of turmoil conflict and emotional problems, you need to turn your life around totally, take up running or something similar where you can push yourself through your limits that will help clean out your emotions and the more you clean out your emotions the better state your mind will be in, there are many things you can do but that's an easy and cheap one, get yourself superfit and your mind will be in a much better place.