my last relationship was a clandestine one and this sucks. mistake from my side in accepting that s*t. she also was broke because her business didn't roll the right way and this meant i shelled out my hard earned money to help her.at some time she got depressed about everything and me, putting the blame on me because she was feeling guilty cheating on the other dude (freakin'kiddin'me??) result, when she finally kicked me out of her life i closed activity on the sexual-relationship field. later on she attempted a contact but sorry, i never abandon anyone,not even the bum at the corner of the street, but if you abandon me, end game, forever. now even my sex drive is waning, there are friends and chicks i'd like to date at some time but a powerful voice (figurative) inside me says: forget it. the game ain't worth the candle. sex is a toy, love is a lie, women fuckin'suck as hard as men and since to my disgrace i am not, unfortunately, bisex or gay, i think i am done forever with relevant ones and this kind of frightens me since this is not a normal thing. took some meds at a point because i was feeling heavily homicidal/suicidal (also for other heavier shit not relevant to the forum topics and i sit on a heap of guns, heritage of my former square self. dont know. it is more than ten years that im on my own and still cant snap out of this train made of loneliness and seclusion. what do ya think, maybe it is just ok going sentimentally and sexually neuteredand i should accept this as a blessing instead of worrying ??
Tis Clear You Have Fallen Into The Deep End Of The Pool, Don't Panic, Just Tread Water For A Few Months, Then Paddle Back To Shore And Start All Over... Cheers Glen.
There are good people and bad people out there. Some are users and some are not. You need to focus on yourself. Be the kind of guy that will attract the right kind of woman. You should also seriously think about what you want in a relationship. Do you want marriage or not? Kids or not? Are you religious or not? Will you move closer to her family or not? Do you want a house or not? Pets? You need to know what you want out of life and then you can find someone who shares the same desires. I wouldn't seek a long term companion in a bar. I actually met my hubby at work (statistics don't lie). If you continue to have a negative outlook, you won't attract anyone and you will become more miserable. My brother in law was the same way. Everyone was against him and women were "hell spawn". He was an alcoholic and verbally abusive. He died a lonely man.
