I was brought up as catholic when younger, as was my brother, we went to catholic school & had to go to church. When I was young I cant say I believed in the catholic religion but more just accepted what was being told to me, I believed the stories to be true. As I went through my teens, that transitional time in your life I started to question my beliefs & everything around me but more so my beliefs. I didn’t like the fact that I was made to go to church, I always believed that if I wanted to talk to god, pray to god & give thanks then I could do it any time any place not go to church at a set time in a set place. I didn’t know if I believed in the RC religion because I actually believed or because it was how I was brought up. When I found out my mum had her tarot cards read when I was in my early teens I started researching in them which lead me to spirituality. I had other interests & slowly pushed spiritualism to one side but when I was 18 I started to search for something & came to spiritualism again. The more I learnt about spiritualism the more I felt more of a connection with god, the more I learnt about myself. But I still feel like I’m searching, still searching for something within me. I’ve had my cards read & I’ve been told I have a gift I just have to embrace it & learn to re-open my 3rd eye. I was also told that I’m telepathic & that when things happen I just pass it off as coincidence & i've not to do that, also the one thing I trust in & always have done is my intuition. I’ve always known this about my intuition, even as a small child, I was told to use this to help open my 3rd eye. I’d like to embrace it more, I’ve been trying to meditate for about a year now but I just cant seem to clear my mind & relax, I’m starting to doubt myself & feel as though I’m screaming from within. I feel very confused at the moment. Can somebody help? Am I having these problems because I’m still searching for something within me? is there something i'm doing wrong? im i trying to hard? sorry for such a long post. Torz x
I will answer intuitively, I think you just need to relax and continue with the meditation. When we are meditating, we are accumulating merit, we are widening our awareness and contributing to our future lives. Meditation does take time, so just carry on with it and see what comes to you. Don't be disheartened if you can't clear your mind, just carry on. You need to sort of notice that the distractions are there and just calmly accept that without trying to change it. Become the watcher and watch your thought process without becoming attached to the thoughts. Carry on and your efforts will not be unrewarded. Another thing you may like to think about, I don't know if you are into this sort of thing, but learning Reiki can and does help people become more attuned with their higher selves and higher purpose. Good luck and let us know how you get on.
just to be opposite , you are searching for something not within you . spirit is an intersection . it is a fact of existence that does not require religion , tho religion says the same thing . so what ? be a true lover . is that so hard ? - sure it is .
ohh boy, ill try to answer intuitively, you cant be perfect at anything in a day , though you shouldnt force it, you should simply let it come, its not the your practicing to little its that your assuming that this process is mechanical and not natural. if you want something thats natural you should treat it in the manner you would treat other natural things and nurtur it in a manner thats fitting.
