When life gets too much... and your head feels like it might explode.... ....when clouds prevent thoughts from being seen. When life gets too much and reality slips through your fingers slowly like sand. When life gets too much and descisions, and questions and answers and moments, minds,thoughts,tears,hurt,love,happyness,pain and sorrow all join together in a harmonious silent scream in your mind.... what do you do? I say this because it happpens... and what can you do? You can meditate yet... but does it answer your problems or just sooth the journey. You can self harm and again... does it answer your problems or just sooth the journey. You can scream, kick, throw, bite, cry, shout, break, smash, and collapse... but still ... the cloud wont have gone. What do you do when u feel that maybe there is no answer? just let it flow? ... parheps run away in your mind and leave the thoughts to simmer like a small dieing animal in the desert sun. memories flash, future flies..... tears come, go,come,go,come,go,come,go,come,go,come,go.... and yet still somethings not quite right. The great white shark of life swims encased in the fishbowl of my mind and as insignificant in the whole scheme of things this is, in this moment, in this time, second,hour,day,week... its all as important as air. And now ive realised that these words have spilt .... did it help? did it sooth the journey or fix the problem... probably not... but damn it feels good to put it down... though there still is many more to come. sorry... i just felt like i needed to clear my head a bit... and i always feel i write freer when it goes on the forums.. where as if it sits on my computer or in a book...i just cant do it. thanks.