hmm i think i have a problem with self esteem or something, ive had lots of really nice boyfreinds that really cared for me & i always got upset & said things that hurt them....for example the other night a really nice guy invited me over & introduced me to his mom & spend the whole night showing me fotos & playing me music (obviously spending quality time with me) getting to know me, but then i accidently said something like that he only wanted sex from me & he was really upset & it kind of ruined our night.... i just cant seem to accept love. & im always going out with jerks who just want one thing... its seems like im always more attracted to the guys that dont even seem to want to know me..... this behaviour is really self destructive huh? i havent been able to have a working relationship in years cos im always with more than one person whats wrong wit me guys?
have you considered therapy? just, most people with self-sabotage issues find it very difficult ot fix on their own, but a therapist or counsellor can help guide them through it a bit better
i think you have really low self esteem and your scared to get close to someone because your afraid your going to get hurt but you need to just let things happen and try to keep one relationship going. You shoudl find a guy that you are interested in and get to know more about him. Not every guy wants sex and if a guy you meet does only want sex then dont give him the time of day, move on and find someone who will treat you right and not treat you like crap. Find someone that makes you feel good about yourself and someone you want to be around with all the time. I used to be just like you. I slept with a lot of guys and they all used me for sex and treated me like total shit and i kept pushing guys away that had an interest in me. But oneday i found the perfect guy who is my first boyfriend and now we've been going out for 4 months and we are madly in love and cant get enough of eachother. He makes me feel good about myself and our relationship isnt all about sex. You want someone that will tell you they love you everyday, hold you when your feeling sad or mad about something, always be there for you when you need help, have your back when something goes down, and just love you for you.
sounds like your miserable.snap out of it!you could be missing out on great times...life is unpredictable so when a bump comes along jump over the mother fucker...don't push people away not everyone is going to fall inlove with you but so what you keep going until you find it....
There's nothing wrong with you, you're just human. Sometimes all you can do is go with the flow until you decide on what you want out of life, only then can you actually pursue it. Don't feel pressurised by society or friends to want something that deep down you don't want, that's when these feelings of conflict arise, and you'll only feel unhappy.
