Hmm..This post isn't really for anyone inparticular. It's just for me to gather my thoughts. I doubt anyone could follow it anyways because, honestly, I don't even know how I feel and i'm very confused. Here's the thing: My boyfriend and I had been dating for 8 months. I broke up with him because I didnt think the relationship was going anywhere. We then got back together in hopes that things would work out. Well, after about a month, there weren't any sparks and I was busy so we didnt get to hang out that much. He broke up with me a few days ago, and I was thinking about breaking up with him, so I was fine with it. He told me that he's been thinking about this other girl lately...>ouch< We had a disagreement and now he's trying to avoid me. I'm trying to get over this, but I can't. It's just so odd to know someone for that long, then just totally dismiss them out of your life like that. Why am I having so much trouble with this? It's not like I'm breaking down and crying. Actually, I try to cry as little as possible because I want to be strong and not break down at every little thing. I should be relieved that he broke up with me, but I'm not. I just wan't to talk to him. Maybe I just miss the relationship and not him, or maybe I just miss having a relationship in general. He seems to be over it...why can't I. I don't understand..and I don't understand how I feel. I suppose only time can heal this. I try to go out and do fun things to keep my mind off of this, but it stays hidden in the back of my mind. Ahh..I hate this...what's my problem.