overall, best year since at least 2006, probably even earlier than that. definitely the most changes in one year since i got out of high school. a vast majority of them for the better.
Unexpected disaster year for me - my first ever operation two of them and awaiting a 3rd on a shattered ankle and broken leg- A poorly grandmother to look after (which I can no longer do) 2 crappy dates ... I have to laugh they were that bad.. So far 2012 can suck my balls.. Positive note it has really shown me who my friends are- I appreciate living where I do right now.. I no longer need to work as I get my rent and social paid (not heaps but get by) I really hope this year balances itself out and improves... :2thumbsup:
So much has happened this year.,.Really so much has happened in the last few years that I have stopped Bull Shitting..,.Meaning I have simply said No!! Im not going out like that, this is what I want to do. I have simply told myself there are things I want.,.I wrote in my Journal my PLANS.,.and I worked the Hell out of my Plans.,.Things Began to happen.,. Now with the Belief that shit IS Possible, I simply draw pictures in my head of things I Want.,.I draw up the Plans.,.and I Work toward them.,Soon as I feel like i'm doing some Last Year type Shit.,.I STOP!!!! Refocus and push forward. Is it easy,,, not always, but I push and I Rarely Look Back... For no reason other than I can.,.I have been drawing picture of Bentley's Coups.,.For no other reason than.,.Its Possible.,.why the hell not!!!!!
I came into realisation, which makes the world around me seem like hell, the lights at the end of the tunnel but I just can't push through the manic crowd to reach it, not just yet. But this is also a good thing, I now live my life in love rather than hate and I know more :2thumbsup: Lost one lover and gained another, too. Lost an abusive, manipulative man and gained a kind, loving, like minded man. I don't know what to expect for the rest of the year yet though...
It feels like this year is going by quicker than I can do anything. It has been a spiritual and emotional rollercoaster for me. I feel so lost, here in 2012.
:love: I am sorry to hear that, it seems challenging for a good few people ... You are not alone :grouphug: