What do you do when...

You've FUCKED UP? And you need to open up to someone.

Describe it in detail. Your fleeting self-sabotaging thoughts, your involuntary body language, the helplessly disconcerted approach, the sigh prior to the beginning of your first sentence...

How do we wear chaos on our sleeves?

 

I rarely fuck up, and if I do... I keep it to myself. I do not feel the need to open up to someone. I know that I fucked up, I know why... I do not see why I need to share it with anyone.

 

When I get that feeling I usually have to curl up in my dark room for awhile and just DEAL, and when opening up comes about, its something that happens so naturally because it is so NEEDED after thinking too hard on my lonesome and burying my head n whatever it is.

 

We are spit from the same dragon. I'm the same.

I need to agonize a bit beforehand.

 

That's a recepie for going through life without INTIMACY.

 

natural. Wanna get some ice cream?

 

Yes. Which flavor?

 

Uh I used to just get drunk and tell people.

Now I have a few good friends that I trust to tell things to....

But I don't fuck up anymore. At all.

 

I like mint chip, or chocolate.

 

Yes, I indeed do not see the need for intimacy... at least not in this stage in my life.

 

Nothing a bit more fruity?

Mango. Yes, mango.

 

i shut everyone out and deal with it myself. when i have come to terms with what i have done and am willing to accept the consequences, that's when i open up about it. people make mistakes. once i deal, i don't dwell on them. people have amazed me with how forgiving they can be as long as i'm honest.

 

Fruity is more like sorbet, isnt it?

 

That's true. In winter I go for banana split. Summer, sorbet.

But both make for great smoochies.

 

i torture myself, sit alone, don't go out, sketch away in my little book. Until i am in the car with my mom, and that is almost always when i cry and open up.

Afterwords, even if nothing happened besides me crying, i usually feel better, because atleast she knows. its not just ME alone.

but yeah i'd hang myself if it wasnt for my mom

 

"The worm forgives the plow that cuts it." ~William Blake

 

I like sorbet. I just really like minty and crunchy chocolate chips

 

I could never do that. When I fuck up, I isolate myself , cry if I feel like it. Then try to save what can be saved. If anything can be saved.

 

I'll serve you a scoop of each in the chilly days.

I spoonfull of mango sorbet when we're out in the sun for a stroll.

Kisses complimentary.

 

I get over it... And move on and continue on with my life... Sitting and feeling bad about things makes everything worse..