A few months ago i got kicked out of school. In 2 weeks i'll be going infront of a exam comission to get my highschool diploma anyways.. if i pass that is. The shit is that i have no social assurance if i'm not looking for work, my parents are making a absolute mess of it by saying that i'm living on their costs right now and my mother is even go so far by threatening to kick me out of her house. Today i had to go to this organisation that gives money to workless people, i went their but this woman with who i had to talk was a total bitch, i honestly said that i wasn't looking for work because i want to focus on this exam commision.. but she started threatening to make a rapport of it and have me suspended by some kind of goverment instance, honestly i don't give a shit about social assurance, i don't care if i'm part of society or not, i don't mind not going to a doctor for a whole year, or not going to the dentist, i just want to get my highschool diploma and then go to college next year. Right now i'm in a very stressfull situation and my parents threatening to put me out of their house is making it all worse.. pfft.. i'm getting totally clueless about all this, it's not that my parents are poor or something, on the contrary. So here i am, with all this stress i can't even focus on my studies, i might not even pass, what if i fail? i will certainly get kicked out of this darn house.. and what then? Go and sit on a hilltop somewhere untill i die? .. god damnit.. society is a pain, and so are my parents -_-.
Damnit, i don't get it at all anymore.. now my mother is sorry for the things she said earlier, she knows that the kind of things she said hurt me more then anything else, yet she has said that kind of things many many times before.. bah.. i always thought i was pretty good at understanding people, but this is just too much. I wish she would decide, either really kick me out of her house.. and then maybe i could go sit on a hill withing for starvation to strike without having to worry if my disappearnce would hurt anyone.. or just stops with making those kind of threats.. bah.. this is all messed up. edit: Sorry for this worthless thread, just had to write down my frustrations somewhere, just in a messy and stressfull situation right now, i hope i pass this darn exam comission, that would take away some of the burdens and worries.
hello! im sorry your having a bad day, im not so great either. mabye it will help to just think that whatever is happening to you now, is happening for a reason, it may better you in the long run or it might just screw with you more....all in all it helps me think more about my future and how i will be free to do without stress when i move out...feel better!
Yea man, i too want to move out, being dependent on your parents at the age of 18 is just a pain. But right now that is not an option, without a highschool diploma i can't get a decent job here in belgium. I really do hope that eventually everything will end up well. My dream right now is to get my highschool diploma next month and then head to nepal to do a few months of volunteer work and just take a chill, not having to worry about my future all the time. But yea, maybe everything is happening for a reason, i know that because all that i've been trough i don't care about a good job anymore, or scoring high in this darn society.. i just want to enjoy life at the moment itself.. but i don't feel as if i have to freedom to do this right now.. maybe in the near future.. i guess time will point out.
there is a life lesson to be learned here your parents were once young like you and now look at them there living on there own
