So It had been almost 4 month since my last MDMA experience. (Not exactly sure about the amount of times I´ve tried it. Last new years eve I had about 3-4 hits during 30h... Then one more time in january, and again in march. Then a couple of hits during Ozora Festival in August; but it wasn't until Ozora that I tried crystals) Met some friends at an underground rave and had 0.2g of MDMA crystals. That was kind of a much smaller dose then I was used to, the last times at Ozora I had about 0.4-0.5g. It was a nice experience, but a little less "extreme" than the last times. My boyfriend tried MDMA for the first time, he only took 0,1g just to be careful. Anyway; I got that nice sensation when it kicked in, things felt amazing and wonderful, I was happy, I was dancing (as always, taking my shoes of and dancing barefoot <3 ). I hugged all of my friends, connected with strangers, I had a fucking good time. My boyfriend reacted kind of differently on the MDMA; maybe it was the low dose, or maybe some people just react that way? He didn't feel especially ecstatic, no major happiness, he just "observed" everything, was pretty calm, didn't talk that much. Still a good thing that he had a low dose the first time he tried MDMA; he didn't have a bad experience either, he just told me he felt kinda "weird". I´m pretty sure he´d enjoy it more with a higher dose? Anyway at 6AM the music faded out, and we walked to the train which was a real pain in the ass. I felt incredibly stressed, annoyed and I just wanted to get back home. After what felt like forever we arrived at home and decided to smoke pot to calm us down. (This is the first time that I smoked pot in connection to MDMA; and I think it really helped. I had appetite the day after, and I didn't feel "down".) Anyway, we smoked a huge joint and went to bed. We still felt pretty weird/different. It was really nice just hugging him and having him close to me. We started having sex and yeah... Apparently we had anal sex, but I swear to god I could not tell "what kind of sex" we had. All I know is how nice it felt, I tried to concentrate and figure out what was going on and what hole was being penetrated, but I couldn't. So that was fun, we still laugh about it. I got really sick the next day, still am, and while smoking pot yesterday I passed out and had to lay down in the snow for almost 15 minutes because I could not get up at all. I´m pretty happy that I´ve not been able to get my hands on MDMA too often. I really like it, and I probably would do it more often if I could. I´d probably never ever feel like doing it more then once a month, even that would probably be way to much... The way my body reacts to it every time; I get so sick, everything aches, AND YEAH, I fuck up my LIPS AND MOUTH EVERY SINGLE TIME. I really tried to control myself this time but apparently I end up doing some repetitive movements with my mouth and the next day I have open wounds on the inside of my mouth. Does anyone have a solution for that? Chewing gum just helps for the jaw tension, but these repetitive things, how do I stop them? Peace!
You're overdosing... that's why the aftereffects are so bad for you. A typical dose is in the 100-200mg range, with a 50-100mg top up 1-2 hours later. Your pot reaction sounds like a "whitey"... I find for a few days after MDMA, my reaction to pot is heightened (it takes a lot less to get me stoned than normal). If I have the same amount as normal, I get the same reaction as you and usually have to lie down. Smoke less and you'll get stoned but won't have the whitey. As for chewing your mouth - it's a chemical deficiency - again, severely amplified by you overdosing. You can reduce this substantially by "pre-loading" - search google or bluelight.ru for "mdma pre-loading" and you'll find out what best to take to counter these effects. I weigh 85-90kg & find a first dose of 120-140mg & topup of ~70mg to give me a fantastic night... with minor side effects... in fact I get a really nice glow the following days, only really feeling phased the day after. I ache if I've been doing quite a bit of dancing/fucking of course. My girlfriend who weighs around 50kg find a first dose of 70-80mg and topup of 40-50mg to be the right amount for her... if she has much more than that, she has some of the typical signs of overdose... cold shivers etc. You should do some research about what you're putting in your body, at least your experiences are quite spread out - that will help to prevent any long lasting damage to you body (brain specifically). The doses you're going for are over the top.
Magnesium pills will relax the repetitive muscle movements, just don't take too much or you'll have diarrhea. Google it like above said for more information. Your bf sounds like maybe he wasn't in the best setting for his first time on MDMA. A lot of people are surprised to learn that for some people, a rave is not a good MDMA scene. I have never been to a rave nor would I want to, especially while on MDMA. I actually very much enjoy it alone, or with my gf, or a SMALL group of VERY close friends. Being opened up emotionally like that in a room with 300 strangers is not everyone's idea of a good time
No I´m not overdosing. 0.2g are 200mg!! Just to make things clear I can hardly imagine taking MDMA "at home" or with a small group of friends. I´d love to try it anyway. What do you do when you don't take it at a rave? I mean, with all the energy built up inside? Do you just talk, do you paint, do you "play games" !? Would be interesting to know! I think MDMA is perfect for raves, at least for me. I´ve only taken it at raves and I think thats just the right environment to take it, but yeah, probably not for everyone.
Ah sorry, focused on the second bit where you said 0.4-0.5g What MDMA does to you depends on the setting, when dosing at home... it's much more chatty & usually ends up in long sex sessions. The energy doesn't build up inside you in the same way... it's a different experience. Mix it with weed on the come-up and it can become quite trippy too I like both... going to see one of my favourite DJs next weeked, going to drop ~0.14g before I go in & then some 2-cb a couple of hours later Many different ways to enjoy the substance IMO... some will enjoy certain ways more than others of course.
Your bf sounds like he didn't take a high enough dose of MDMA, at my first rave I sort of played 'anthropologist' as well and pretty much observed for the first half of it but I took a higher dose and was consumed by the roll, music and people on the latter half. The repetitive movements may lessen over time and I don't really know about open wounds, that sounds like serious gurning. Some use binkies at raves here, that could perhaps help. I don't get as drastic facial movements as I used to and never really had open sores but I found water would help somewhat as well and gum which you said you already use. The experience generally is not as extreme as the rave enviornment but I've enjoyed going to the beach, going for walks, listening to music, sex, massages, talking and lights shows. Absolutely, raves are structured to accentuate and push the MDMA experience. At their best raves can be a spiritual, transformative experience. It's amazing how many times I've heard people at raves who had little to no interest in dancing and/or electronic music prior to going to a rave say "This is the best night of my life."
Personally, the only reason I ever take E or MDMA is for the sex. It's just so intense, loving and it goes on forever. I can never just concentrate on dancing no matter how hard I try. I see one beautiful woman and some soft white skin and off I go on a one track quest. I also have a foot fetish and I've found that I can just sit for hours on end massaging some girl's feet and kissing them while we talk and talk. It's the most intimate experience ever. I wish people were permanently that honest.
I always get sick on MDMA. Any time I've done it, I've enjoyed the experience but definitely been sick after. Smoking weed while rolling gives me a weird feeling also, not really into it.
