weird friendship, need some advice?

hey everyone...i don't post here often but i could use a bit of honest advice.

i have a weird love/hate relationship with one of my guy friends. we've been good friends for 6 years and every now and then we'll hook up...not sexually, we just might make-out at a party or something. i've told him i wanted to take it to a friends with benefits level and he agreed, but then went back on his decision by saying, "our friendship is more important" blah blah. i'm honestly not looking for a relationship with him but i'm attracted to him like i've never been to anyone before. he's always kept me on my toes by saying he would want to be with me and then making the "friendship" excuse...over and over again. it's confusing, but last weekend was the last straw.

a bunch of us went to a club to celebrate a friend's birthday, including this guy friend who i'll call "tim". after we were all completely drunk, tim's friend (who i'll call "mark") showed up who i'd hooked up with once before (which i don't think tim knows about). next thing i know, i'm making out with mark in front of tim and everyone. but i was so ridiculously drunk, the second i could get away from mark i'd find tim and try to make-out with him . the memories are blurry but i remember tim resisting me most of the time. after a few seconds though, he would briefly let me do my thing but would then try to get away.

i didn't think he was jealous AT ALL until on the way back to a friend's house, he decided he wanted to go home. that drove me crazy and i started to tell him things like, "please don't leave, i want you to come, i want to hang out with you," etc. his response was "you have mark, you don't need me, mark is waiting for you," etc. after a few moments, he said, "do you think i'm jealous?" and my response was, "no actually i don't think you are at all" and he replied, "good...because i'm not." i of course proceeded to try to make-out with him, which he wasn't really having. he kind of left without saying bye and that was that.

i discussed it with the friend who drove us and he concluded that tim was jealous. that of course he didn't want to come back to our other friend's house because mark was going to be there, what would he do then? and on top of it all, mark is his friend. i didn't see this at all, but it got the idea into my head.

so my question is, was he jealous? is he confused about me? because i get the feeling he doesn't know what he wants. then again, i might be delusional from the alcohol and he just doesn't want me at all. i don't know, i need some outside perspective on this.

thanks in advance...

 

You and your friend need to talk.

 

i think maybe you should try to find someone other than a male friend to makeout with, ie a boyfriend. using your friends for pleasure like that will only lead to complications adn drama (as its already starting to), especially with you bouncing between two of them