I am married, and have been for many years, and while I prefer the company of women as sexual partners I have had many experiences with guys at gay and hetro saunas in different locations and countries. My experiences to date have extended to mutual masturbation and oral sex and I love watching and being watched. However, I have no desire to have an emotional relationship with a guy and view my experiences as sexual pleasure. I also enjoy being anally penetrated but have never allowed a man to do it, other than with a finger during massage, mainly due to a fear of AIDS, but my desire to have a man penetrate me is growing stronger although I do not have a desire at the moment to reciprocate. I would like to find someone who would finish me off afterwards as I have had some frustrating experiences when having made other guys orgasm the have lost all interest and left before I have ejaculated. I am sure that there are many out there who have gone through this thought process and would like to hear advice, good and bad, based on personal experiences so that I can make the right decision on the next major step.
