there is no evil it is GOOD to be evil TO there is only bennifit and harm and the more harm there is floating arround the more likely each and every last one of us individualy as well as collectively is to be injured by it and the more harm anyone causes the more there is floating arround (not that it isn't good to try and prevent harm but if harm is caused in the process it is still harm) =^^= .../\...
i agree with all of that. there is no good and evil. but there most certainly is benefit and harm. good and evil are eternally open to speculation. and to an extent, so are benefit and harm. like... there was a time in my life when i felt like drugs were beneficial to me. but now i feel like they are harmful to me. but yes, if i were to go around spreading harm... starting wars, etc. then undoubtedly, it would come back to me in the form of further harm. whereas, if i were to go around spreaing benefit... loving, sharing, etc. then it might just return to me in beneficial ways. perfect sense
When I was younger I started to read the bible. As the days moved on reading the bible got harder. Soon I descovered that I was being tormented by demons. They started to shake the bed I would sleep in and speak to me in condemning voices, often telling me they were going to kill me. The voices would come out of thin air. Sometimes people around me could hear the voices. Finally a friend of mine told me about some Christians who deal with demons like this, and said they could help me rid myself of them. He asked me if he should ask them if they could help me. I was going to answer yes right away. Then suddenly I lost my voice. After about half of a minute I could speak again and I told him yes. On a Saturday morning I met these 9 Christians in a home in Crete Il. They prayed and sang hymns. These Christians seem to know about everything these demons were doing. They even knew their names. Finally they told the one demon to leave me and he left me and attacked on of the Christians present. The second demon in me kept saying how much he hated Christ. They then commanded him to leave but he refused. They told him if he did not leave he would be destroyed. He then spoke up and said it would be better to be destroyed then burn in Hell. In my mind I could hear his screams, while another woman said she could see him burning on the floor. It's been 33 years now and I still read my bible. I never here the voices any more and my bed nolonger shakes. DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU THERE IS NO EVIL IN THIS WORLD. This is a true story, and I still have the audio tapes from that Saturday.
I would suggest that perhaps your "demons" are part of you and come from within yourself and that you needed a way to deal with your confusing and fearful thoughts. For you it was the bible and christianity but for someone else it could have been the local witch doctor and a sacrifice. On the original point, I agree 100%.