that make me cry inside. I stole some kids la gear keychain in 1st grade. Right out of his desk. You know, the ones that came on the shoes. When I got mad, I used to tell my best, and pretty much only friend, that I wasn't coming over any more once I got my own nintendo and other wrong such things. In 2nd grade I punched a girl in the stomach and honestly didn't remember it 20 minutes later when the teacher came asking about it. I used to tell my dad I hated him almost every day. By the time I was 10 1/2 I had 'forgotten' about it. He asked me one day(same age) if I hated him. I told him no and asked why he would think that. He reminded me of what I would say to him and I've never forgotten since. I once threatened to throw his computer off it's desk. At one point in life I would tell him "you're not my real dad, I don't have to listen to you". I watched him go to jail because I was pressured by my mom not to tell the cops what I saw, as she was the one who should've been going. I watched my mom punch my dad repeatedly and told the cops it never happened. I spit in my aunts glass of water once when her and my mother were fighting. I used to call my mom an alcoholic among other things. I used to tell my middle brother that he wasn't my brother, that I hated him and that my youngest brother was the only one I'd talk to when I grew up. I used to tell him he was worthless and make fun of everything he had wrong with him. I used to beat him til he was ungodly afraid of me. I lied to and cheated on some of the sweetest girls I ever dated. One girl wanted to do nothing, ever, but be with or be talking to me. She offered to buy me anything I wanted, all the time(I wouldn't let her), and spent all of her time trying to be with me. It wasn't enough for me and over a years time I cheated on her more than anybody I've ever dated. If you ever stop and think about some of the truly horrible things you've done to the people that love you, it might just change your attitude or your life. I know it has for me. Remembering those experiences alone has helped me grow as much as anything I've ever gone through. All of those things have shown me who I don't want to be, and why I don't want to be that kind of person. It's amazing how soon you can see reason and logic in the things your parents used to say to you at a young age if you just try to understand them. I'm 20 yrs old and I already see purpose to most of the things I used to discuss with my dad that didn't make sense then. Things I hated him for then make so much sense now. Not always what he did, but why he did it. When I think about the person I could be had I just listened and tried to understand then instead of now, I almost cry.