Ok.. well I know I am usually the first to hand out advice to others and such.. but you know the old saying.. your always the last to take your own good advice.. and I really suck at it. My problem is that recently I got back in touch with a guy I really really liked.. back last summer I ran into him and we hit it off.. started talking and chatting and even talking over the phone regularly. I eventually took someones advice and stopped talking to him for stupid reasons. Back around January to early February I started talking to him again and apoligized like mad to him for what I had done to him.. because when i stopped talking I mean I stopped.. no text no online talk no phone calls.. so I was really stupid for it and I know I can never make it up to him for doing it. But recently in the past 3 weeks he has stopped really talking to me.. I mean I called and called him almost 5 to 6 times a day but I never really was able to talk to him for more than 2 to 5 minutes at a time.. the times I did get to talk to him even for half an hour i was so happy that I could have exploded from the inside out.. and not being able to talk to him was tearing me up inside so badly. Now I worry because I have stopped calling and I never hear from him.. maybe once or twice a week he would try and call me. But I feel like I have become little more than a burden to him and that he is trying to avoid me because he wants to end things.. but is not sure how to tell me he wants to end things because he does not want to hurt me.. so honestly.. long story short... Help.
I'd say, trust your gut feeling. Maybe it isn't going to work for all kind of reasons. I also would not saddle myself with a label like "Burden". Working out relationships, whether gay or straight is tough stuff. From what you said, the communication went bad from almost the start. Sometimes it happens that way. Perhaps the finest art of a relationship is letting go with grace when the time comes. It's not about blame or fault, it's just the way it works sometimes. Pick up whatever lessons you have learned and see where life takes you next. Be kind to yourself.
You got his e-mail? Copy and paste that post into an e-mail and ask him where it should go from here. He may dump you but there would be no more anxiety. You may be infatuated with him now, but he's not the only guy in the world. Sometimes, open, straightforward communication is the best way to handle a situation of the heart. But you knew that didn't you?
