The "Bad" kind of OCD

Discussion in 'Mental Health' started by AutumnsMoonChild, Jan 26, 2009.

  1. Has anyone ever heard of Obsessive compulsive disorder [in my opinion]at it's worst?

    You recieve awful images in your head of your loved ones being hurt, thoughts of how you would go about harming yourself or others despite the fact that you don't want to(and probably won't), etc.

    For example, when one of my friends was a kid, she somehow felt compelled to put her cat in the dryer. Fortunately, she didn't turn the dryer on, and only left her in there for about 5 seconds. She wouldn't harm any human or creature.

    I myself am always afraid to go to sleep when there are others around, because I freak out and think, "what if I sleep walk and hurt someone in my sleep because i'm having a bad, realistic dream?" I've never had a sleepwalking episode in my life...these particular obsessions are the reason I was diagnosed with OCD in the first place.

    I don't know if this makes any sense...but if it does, is there anybody out there who experiences something similiar?
  2. footloose

    footloose Member

    Yes. I've always suffered from awful images in my head of horrible things. It used to haunt me every day, with the thought ... what if I lose control and end up doing these things. Probably why you find sleeping a bit of a problem, cos you don't feel under full control of what you're doing.

    But with a small attempt to console, I use physical energy to push these thoughts out, I completely avoid watching any form of horror (or anything that might conjure even more horrific images) or reading too much of that kinda stuff - and I'm slowly getting over it.

    I think you just kinda have to tell yourself that you can control it, even if you feel like you can't.
  3. footloose

    footloose Member

    Oh and sometimes, especially when I smoked, I'd feel myself start to get up to do these things which freaked me out stupid amounts.

    So I stopped doing that.
  4. Spiritchalist

    Spiritchalist Member

    This happens to me sometimes. I'll be high with my friends and say the most sinister fucked up things, without even thinking about them.

    "Imagine if you kicked a dog in the ribs, and it broke in two" for example.

    That's the only one I remember clearly, but I do it every time I get high almost. It doesn't bother me too much, except for the akwardness after I say it. Sometimes it's just a mental picture, maybe of someone getting their skin torn off, or something else gruesome. I think it's a release valve sort-of for my internalized rage and a reflection on my poor family relations.
  5. i sometimes have this sort of feeling, but i've been diagnosed schizophrenic. the only way i can identify as feelin these things as compulsions, is if the "voices", as they say, are not present, but i feel powerless over my actions.

    however, that is one of a million other symptoms, so safe to say you're not schiz. probly, yeah, just OCD.
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  7. seizedbyanger

    seizedbyanger Banned

    i have horrible OCD.

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