That moment you realize you are still alive

This may or may not be coherent, I'm pretty saturated. But here goes. I had a long day and stopped by the bar to have a few drinks and just be alone. Sitting by myself the bartender asks me if I want a shot and pointed to some lady, so I said sure. Walked over thanked her and took the shot, went out to talk and have a smoke and immediately I was thinking just leave me alone. Partially because she was crazy as fuck and partially because I just want to be left alone. So I phased that out and she ended up basically storming out, I guess I hurt her feelings because I didn't jump her bones. So I felt bad and felt like what the fuck is wrong with me? If I were the type I would have cried, for real.

So I get home feeling like a fucked up mess. Call my old man because he sometimes gives me good advice, well he just told me to pull my head out of my ass and that didn't help. More beer. Then I get a text from my old roommate, who I've basically loved since I met but didn't show it because she was my roommate. On the real I would probably marry her. I professed my feelings later but that's a different post. Turns out she is moving back here and we had a good little talk. She wants to meet up for drinks. I actually felt a breath of real life in myself but not sure if I can handle that. Either way it's good to know I'm still alive.

Not sure if anyone can relate to that but I don't give a fuck if not. Just wanted to type something out.

 

I'm Sure Most Posters On Here Can...:cheers2:



Cheers Glen.

 

Just because some broad buys you a shot doesn't automatically mean you need to have sex with her. If she's reacting like that then you made the right choice. Sounds crazier than a shithouse mouse.

That's exciting about your old roommate. It's good to be reminded you're still alive. To have a little part inside woken up again. Good luck with all of that. I hope it goes well for you!

 

Well, that's enough Hipforums for me for one day.

 

Super crazy. I texted one of the bartenders to help me hahaha. But she stormed out before intervention came. And the roommate is exciting, but I don't want to drag anyone else down. I'd probably rather just bust my knuckles, get drunk and chill with my dogs.

Cheers Glen :cheers2:

 

Good. Go breathe the winter air until you have something positive to say.

Edit: And go to bars by yourself, I guarantee you at some point some chick will buy you a shot too. As much as I go to bars to sit alone and drink it happens.

 

I know exactly how you feel it's happened to me a few times.

One time in particular I working guard duty at sheppard air force base along with a female airmen and she couldn’t have been more obvious if she was wearing a t-shirt which read “fuck my brains out”

I don’t know somewhere along the way there was this disconnect so I brushed her off and she stormed off super pissed.

Hotwater

 

You're Going To Wake Up With A Hell Of A Hangover Tomorrow....



Cheers Glen.

 

They sure don't like it when they don't get what they want. Funny thing is they blow off all kinds of guys doing the same thing and just see it as an ego boost or free drinks.

Nah, I'm a professional drunk. You fly I buy breakfasts are my friend on mornings like tomorrow.

 

Isn’t it the truth


Hotwater

 

I've considered it, but I don't think I could go to a bar alone. Besides, these days bars just aren't my thing, especially when it comes to meeting women. I am more interested in meeting classy, somewhat intellectual women as opposed to the scuzzy broads who hang out at bars on weeknights and get sloppy drunk.

I am not going to dog someone if that's their thing, but it's not my scene.

 

I obviously didn't go there to meet women. I wanted to drink the buy 1 get 1 free Stellas. That was an annoyance.

My point is you can make it what you want. Everything isn't so black and white.. You can go out, have a couple good drafts then a cup of coffee and go home. Fuck what anyone thinks. One of those times you may just meet that classy, intellectual woman doing the same thing. But you certainly aren't going to sitting at home.

And I don't mean that as criticism just try to see that everyone has a different mindset and motive for the things they do.

 

Point taken.

 

And avoid the life sucking succubus whores like the plague. That's one thing I've learned. Being alone is infinitely better.

 

It seems that way. Pussy aside, women just don't seem worth the bother sometimes... at least from my perspective. But then again I'm not normal.

 

Pussy is cool and all but when it's just that it's not worth it. You can watch porn, jerk off and go about your life. The key is when you still feel all crazy about her after you cum. But even that can be a trap. That's why I feel like these days the next gf I have is going to be a friend first. Sex is easy and it can be a serious clouding factor. I want to develop something before sex takes place, call me gay I don't give a fuck.

 

And That Also Applies To The "Gay Scene", You Get To The Point

Where No Amount Of "Spit And Spunk" Can Replace A Quiet Hour

Of Solitude....



Cheers Glen.

 

people always call me gay

 

I think that is quite laudable, actually. I have always kind of felt that way myself. But still, jerking off will never come close to actual sex, even if it's with a person you otherwise cannot stand.

 

You guys say that but its only because you haven't found the right woman yet. Not all of us are crazy bitches. Some of us are more than just pussy. We're worth your time. You guys are too damn young to shut down and put up walls already.

Dev, you remind me SO MUCH of my brother in law. He got screwed over REALLY BAD by his wife. I honestly didn't think he would ever get over it. He locked himself behind a 10 foot thick stone wall. He shut down all of his emotions and was done with relationships for a really long time. Honest to god, all he did was drink and hang out with his dog. Sound familiar? I've had a lot of private conversations with him and I wasn't sure he was ever going to come out of that. He found someone and they've been together over a year now. I was shocked. I've known him since I was 15 years old and I've never seen him be as affectionate with anyone, even his wife, as he is with her. It just takes finding the right one that can tear down the walls. You just have to allow that to happen. You say you don't want to bring a woman down with you but I've read enough things on here to know that you want nothing more than to find that one woman that will do that. You just have to find the one that is worth it. Friends first is a great idea!