Hello all, I have been having trouble getting over my boyfriends recent suicide. I found out last week and since then I have been so empty and lost without him... I was wondering if anyone could tell me if my boyfriend wants to tell me something or if someone maybe could get ahold of him for me and see if he has any messages or anything... I wrote him a long letter and read it out loud (after I found out he had died)... we never had closure. We had a fight and the last thing I said to him was I hated him and then I found out he killed himself. I was deeply in love with him and wanted him to be my future husband, I was wondering if he felt the same way towards me. We never met in person because we got to know each other online... I don't even know what he looks like. He knows what I look like through pictures etc... Im sorry I am rambling... I was just wondering if its not too much to ask if someone might help me?
your late BF is prob busy making sense of the life he left and the death he chose... i hear it takes a while. he'll prob wind up making sense of it when you come to terms with it. no matter what, don't follow him. i can imagine it's hard, i'm even feeling some of your grief right now, but I've touched on the void more times than I like to admit. it's not pleasant.
I'm sorry he did commit suicide but did you really intend to marry someone you met over the internet who you have never even seen?
