Submissive masturbation fantasies?

One of the most frequent and powerful fantasies I use when I masturbate it to be confronted by an older female authority figure (e.g., nurse, teacher) during my adolescence and forced to openly discuss my masturbating. Sometimes I’m alone, and sometimes another person like my mother is with me.

The authority figure explains that masturbation is a natural, healthy and normal thing for a young man of my age to do, and says that by discussing it openly with her, I will see that I don’t have to feel guilty or ashamed about it. I writhe with embarrassment as she asks many probing questions about how often I do it, the techniques I use to play with myself (one hand or two), where I do it, how much and how forcefully my semen comes out, and how I feel about myself afterwards. She explains that these questions are intimate but that they are for my own good.

Often, a thorough examination of my penis and testicles follows this inquisition. I try not to get an erection, but of course it’s unavoidable and the authority figure assures me that such a response is normal for a boy my age and that I don’t have to be embarrassed about it.

Sometimes, my fantasy includes her forcing me to masturbate under her close scrutiny as she provides encouragement and reassures me that what I’m doing is a natural and beautiful part of my development. I always have a powerful ejaculation and she praises me for it. Masturbating for her is the most erotic thing that my adolescent self has ever experienced, and I revel in feelings of pride for how well I “performed”. She thanks me for sharing this intimate moment and reminds me that masturbating will be an essential and important part of my life.

I sometimes wonder if it’s normal to have such fantasies. The act of masturbation and its forbidden nature has always been a big turn on for me; more so than regular sex with another person. Being forced to admit that I masturbate, and even having to demonstrate it excites me. Do others have such fantasies?

 

A sometime fantasy for me is that a woman of authority, power, and strength (like a female drill sergeant) verbally abuses me to the point of emotional break-down. But in the fantasy she doesn’t discuss sex (masturbation included) at all, except perhaps by calling me a wanker.