I wrote this a while back whilst times were hard and depression high so quite deep but I hope still enjoyable... STEP! You've said I'm happy Called me funny Called me a mate A brother, son or nephew. My life some would say is good Others great But I see it differently And I see backstage It's God that brought me here But it's his voice I just can't hear Not hearing is what I fear Not life. If my life is good Then why am I here? Why will it end in one steps time? It's not hearing that I fear And I look at the cross that dangles round my neck But I just hear the silence of cars whizzing by. And I look in your eyes as I have a thousand times And they look back not knowing. No one knows I'm here. No one knows my fear. Who will find me? What will they do? I'm not here to hurt others I'm here to end my fear I'm here a step away from death One step then I've left In one steps time the fear will be gone In one steps time Just one step In one steps time I talk through spirit only And you may say I had a good life But do you know of my strife? Did you see what I saw today? Did you see a loved one struggle? When I'm gone don't be sad My life wasn't all that bad I've had good times And I've had fun I've enjoyed some bits And I've achieved quite a lot But the thing is... Things have changed I'm here hood up You in my eye My eye from which so many tears are shed And I take half a step And another quarter Then leap back five I just can't do it And I hear a voice Though I'm not sure whose. Whilst writing this I've come to realise That liek the sun We willa ll fall But the sun also rises As do we. By Gareth Luce
