I am wondering if I will ever find a soulmate who is more than just a friend. Everyone craves love and I am craving the romantic sort very strongly right now and I am anything but a serial monogamist, or someone who feels that they need to be constantly validated by others. I am just sad because at this particular time ALL of my closest friends are happily in love and I am so lonely. I am also still very heartbroken by someone I was, and may still be in love with; someone I considered my twin flame. He fully reciprocated and I know he loved me too, but I am sure he already had some underlying mental/emotional problems because he ended our (amazing) relationship out of nowhere, with no explanation by simply ignoring me. I guess he didnt actually end it, he just stopped talking to me. I accepted it but I am all the more heartbroken because I still have strong feelings for him and I feel I will meet know what happened. I currently have a very close male friend with benefits who I have feelings for, but he is very hard to read, as I know I am as well, and I don't really see the telationship evolving from what it currently is because I don't feel as strong of feelings for him as I did for my past partner. I am a fairly social person and I have opportunities to meet people, but it's rare that I find true romantic connections, and it has me a little discouraged
it's a positive Quest , and you could be more physical about it and socially so . going out dancing would be an example of that - searching for a soulmate psychically you'll mostly meet with dreamers ... but be very kind to them . they are friends of thought- ful hopefulness . you want to be family , and with no confusion .
My take on this, after years and years of seeking and searching, is that it isn't about the person. It is about the destination. When you connect with a soul mate/twin flame/intense friend, it is otherworldly. I too had the experience where I looked into a man's eyes and we both saw...god, the breathing universe, the hum of all creation, ourselves in all our loving flaws and it was all ok, all as it was supposed to be, all was love and beautiful. It woke me up. He, sadly, turned out to be a total pussy. He could never let me go but could never face himself or us and blah blah blah. Two years I tried to reconnect. The alternative seemed to be a life without magic. Well, after giving it my best shot, I knew I needed to move on. I dove in to the next person I could really enjoy. I didn't hold back at all. A single touch was filled with love, even though I hardly knew him. He was brave enough to accept and return it all. And you know what? We got to the same mind-bending place where colors explode and you feel each other even when you're far away and all is love and beauty. Because it was never about the man. It was about getting "home". Dive in. Love with your whole soul. You know how now. Enjoy it for the moments that come, not for any other reason. Much love to you!
When was this? Yesterday? Well then it must be that people have turned away from conversation to the art of self-discovery for the new times. Now: all those talkative "adjusted" extraverts on the main stream. I won't ignore them. I'll compete.:biggrinjester:
