So I seriously think I'm losing it. No matter who I'm with, or what I'm doing, I seem to always be depressed. This really sucks ass like you would not believe. Even when I'm giving a hug to the guy I melt over, I feel so helpless and unwanted. I seriously think i have depression. I really do. I took 5 different tests from clinical researches. 4 out of 5 said I was depressed. What does this mean?
it means you should consider a therapist, remember that 14 is a rough time and (iirc) you just lost a friend recently, a good close friend and of course that will make you less than sunshine-happy
oh man i feel like laughing right now, memories coming back. seriously i constantly get depressed too, mostly by same things - and i dont think its a problem just the way i think atm. but if u compared this to what it was like when i was 14-15, damn girl. i hated life so much back then, and when people would tell me its just teen years id be like no way im different, im not stressed just because i couldnt buy new trainers - i have real problems. but truth is, 99% of teens with any intelligence get depressed, because life really does suck at that age. just wait a few years, u will see. shit will not become great until ur about 18-20 but it will get alot better. your pic reminds me of someone i used to know btw. oh and dont worry about guys, they should be melting over you not you over them. just let things slide for the moment, ur very prety - u will find someone eventually, and waiting makes the end result just that much more sweet. good luck =)
Its just that odd time in life where your not a kid but not an adult and stuck trying to figure out your place in life Im 17 and I have the same shit going on, its like you think you are the only one with these problems and that everyone else looks so happy/ at ease with their lives Depression was so bad for me at a time that all I wanted to do was sleep all day and I somewhat thinking about suicide because I was more unhappy than happy When I was around 15 I was dealing more with hate and irritability and hating how 'fake' life was (a cynical catcher in the rye view on life) I had hella bad insomnia Now I am bored, sometimes depressed, sometimes anxious or paranoid Well good luck I hope you feel better
regardless of what happens in your life just try the best you can to keep your head up. things will get better. if they dont, you're dead. as i get older i realize that is ok.. you'll make it.