I'm in a really bad situation right now. It doesn't matter if I explain it fully or not, but I fell madly in love and realized months later that nothing romantic could ever form out of the relationship. Our friendship even fell apart, and we left on bad terms. I feel hopeless, depressed, numb, suicidal...the whole deal. Every time I see him my stomach drops...and I want to say something but I know I can't. I know it doesn't hurt him in this way and that kills me constantly. I can't focus on anything, and I have raging thoughts of depression and despair. He was the only person I could truly talk to, you know? Now I don't even have that. Just fleeting moments of complete awkwardness when we make eye contact...but even so, I go out of my way to see him. I'm fucking insane but it feels right to see him, even if we aren't speaking. Time won't help me get over this, I know. I need positive ways to deal with this. I've arrived at a dead end and there's no place to turn. I need to turn my life around, but I don't know where to start. I'm in therapy, but I can't even begin to address this issue. Please, anybody, thoughts or comments? (sorry for the full story, but i needed to get that out)
Wow, thats a bad situation. The only thing I can say is that - contrary to what you said about "time" - time does heals everything. I've been there too. Trust me, you'll get through it. While your waiting to heal, keep yourself busy. If you occupy your mind with hobbies, outings etc. you won't be thinking of him as much which will allow the healing to take place. Suicide? Forget it. A year from now, when you're in a new relationship, you'll think back and realize how foolish it was to actually concider killing yourself over that guy...what was his name? Being in therapy is great but only works when you BRING UP WHATS DEPRESSING YOU!! Talk to your therapist about it, even though it might be hard at first, you'll feel better!! Good luck Night owl. Blessings, Bee
I wrote a heartfelt letter to him tonight, and I'm planning on giving it to him the next time we come in contact. I feel MUCH better after putting all my thoughts down on paper. Thanks again..
