I love marijuana. I started smoking when I was 14 and became a regular user by the time I turned 19. I've been a heavy user since I turned 23. I'm 26 years old now. What I mean by heavy user, is I'll smoke about 1.5 ounces ($600) in 2 weeks. That is all to myself, not what I share. I don't share because I have no one to share with. I'm stoned all day, every day from waking up to going to sleep. I have a good job working at home. I set my own hours but its hard for me to want to work. Its hard for me to want to do anything. I don't do anything but sit on my ass and eat. I'm on my computer all day and watching movies. I just smoke weed all day. Smoking weed for this long has even given me mental disorders. I feel incredibly socially anxious all the time. I feel socially awkward, especially when I'm stoned. People can see the awkwardness because when I smoke weed, I become a mute. Whenever I'm with people (with the exception of one person I'm close to), the affect from being high makes me feel unable to communicate or express myself around other people. Talking becomes too much of an effort and I just space out and start thinking to myself and day dreaming. It used to not bother me but because of this, I no longer have friends. Nobody really knows me and I come off as awkward, boring and dumb. I am usually not those things. I actually love being around a lot of people and go to parties, music festivals, raves, etc... But usually I won't go stoned to those events. But I can't hang out with just people. Everyone I know smokes and I'll end up smoking with them. Then I become a nervous wreck. I usually smoke alone because of this. It has gotten so bad that people don't like me. I'm not aloud in peoples homes because I have "no personality". I become a wall flower. I only have one friend. It's hard for me to meet people because I'm always stoned and can't communicate. But when I'm not stoned, I'm awesome! =) I no longer leave my house, I only have one phone number in my phone that isn't family, and my life is just pathetic now. When I don't smoke weed I get a lot done, I'm always on the go and people think I'm interesting. But I'm always stoned. I think maybe I should go hiatus for awhile. Or maybe only smoke before bed. Maybe I'd even get more satisfaction out of it knowing that it's something I have to wait for all day. But I can't train myself to not go for the plant when I have it. Anyway, sorry for the long rant. I'm just stoned and thinking out loud.
My guess is that you have the social anxiety more as a result of sitting at home all day and not going out. That would also explain the lethargy and complacency. The weed would naturally inhance your anxiety somewhat. Maybe lay off or cut back for a bit and start doing more with people if you'd like to. But to be honest I think your problems stem from your lifestyle, not your cannabis use.
Yes, stop smoking weed. I can't give detailed and clever advice since I don't know enough about it, but I can give you my opinion and it won't be completely absurd. If smoking weed constantly stops you from living your life effectively, then you need to stop. Cut back. You need drive and ambition and friends. Whilst you're devoting yourself to puffing on a herb, you have nothing. You've already said you get lots done when you're sober and that you're interesting. Also find something to get you out. I wouldn't advise working from home on an everyday basis to anybody. It's different if you have responsibilities to keep you at home, otherwise the routine is something we all need. Our bodies and minds need it to stay healthy. Smoke weed rarely. Maybe just on the weekends. It's something to enjoy and look forward to.
you know, or pretend you are someone else rereading your post, and realize that this person obviously has a tough time making decisions for themselves. seriously, reread your post as though someone else wrote it. the logical thing to do is to cut back/ quit for a little while, to see if that alleviates the issues you are having. some people just arent high- functioning potheads. and at $300 a week think of the money you'd be saving. frankly you sound like you are wasting weed to maintain a super level of high, when your tolerance is probably the highest thing about you. luckily my smoke is free, but i don't blow through that much that fast.
i used to have a lot of problems that i blamed on weed because like you, i was always super high from the time i woke up to the time i went to bed. I cut back a lot on weed, even stopped smoking for a few weeks at a time, and i realized that weed wasn't neccessarily the problem. However, weed has a way of making you okay with your problems. If you were sitting around your house all day with no friends, no one to talk to, and you weren't high, i bet you would be going out of your skull with boredom, or else that boredom would force you to be really productive with your work. the general rule with pot is it makes everything better. That includes sitting on your ass and doing nothing. It all of a sudden becomes tolerable whereas to a sober mind it would create a restless feeling that would lend a certain drive to just go do something. I would suggest quitting pot and replacing it with activities that make you happy and restful inside. From upping your work productivity to going out with friends, anything that creates a feeling of contentment, do it. Then after a few months if you're happy with your current position in life you can reintroduce pot back into your life in moderation. Like just at night or just on weekends as someone else suggested. moderation really is key. weed is relatively benign but being high from sunup to sundown will definitely begin to take a toll on you.
Well said. Weed makes you content with sitting around doing nothing. Therefore since you are content with sitting around, you are making no effort for self improvement. Weed enhances your emotions. So you feel comfortable by yourself therefore enjoy being high by self. Since you have social anxieties weed enhances them when around people and you notice them a lot more. Yes, I think you should take a long break from smoking. I am talking at least 6 months. I mean not even taking 1 hit for 6 months no matter what. even if you can't sleep. You are a heavy smoker so I recommend this long. It will not be easy but prove to yourself you are not addicted. After your 6 month break you should be very refreshed and improved by then. Now I recommend you smoke only occasionally now after your break. Like make it an occasional special thing. Right now all weed is doing is zoning you out and turning you into a zombie. Keeping this up is not very healthy. During that 6 months if you wanna relax. Then go for a nice walk through the forest or woods. Also since at the moment all you do is sit around most of the time at your home. You will need to find some new friends. Also I recommend taking up some sort of hobby or activity. Maybe take up a yoga class and be on a schedule for that or go to the gym a few nights a week and exercise or take up jogging. Buy a bike go ride it sometimes. Also just to let you know for like 30 days after you quit smoking weed you will have withdrawal symptoms.
you should be proud of smoking marijuana. I'll leave it at that... ///////////////////////////////////////////// Your nothing but a pack of cards! -- says Alice in Wonderland
I don't know if you feel you need the weed but I was like you buzzed from sun up to sundown. Like what has been suggested, I quit for 6 months and yes the first while sucked. But since I started smoking again I'm able to take it or leave it. I enjoy it so much more now. That 6 month vacation from cannabis was the best thing I could of ever done. Good Luck
Give up Cannabis and smoke Tobacco, .. find a rehab, see a psychologist/psychiatrist get hooked on Cymbalta and never bother us again.. This is not rehab..
I know psychiatrist's are horrible. If you smoke weed that is their exact goal. Screw cymbalta and all those stupid anti-depressant drugs.
OP, your smoking too much bud. Damn, thats so much money to be spending that often..unless you are REALLY well off. As others have said, take a little break and start been more ACTIVE, and see if the problems your having start to diminish.
This is exactly how I feel. I'll even feel uncomfortable around my own sister (after we smoke) and close friends. It's like I say things that I don't really think or I'll think too hard or just be too focused on fitting in or trying to talk that I go in isolation mode. It sucks. I love getting high alone, but with most people most of the time I'm pretty bad. I feel like my own friends are judging me when they're not. Weed is not a social drug for me. I think it becomes this way for some people when you smoke regularly. It sounds weird to just stop smoking, but I think you would enjoy it more. At least try it for a few weeks and save a lot of ca$h!
I've been smoking weed since I was 16 and I'm 59 now. But, apart from spells - holiday times/travelling - I've always smoked in the evenings, towards the end of the day and generally not so much. I've never been the sort of person to just sit-about - I like to be active and was always repelled by friends who just got stoned all day-long. Weed is wonderful things, natural plant and all that, which I find enhances things that you enjoy; it can also, as said make you a bit socially awkward. My advice is, like most of the other posters, to have a break and then keep it to occasional use. Anyway if you're smoking that much you will not be getting the effect that you would get having occaisonal smokes. You'll also be one hell of a lot better off. Your post sounds like you could be a 'together' sorta person so....... Good luck Simon
due to my lifestyle, i usually end up hanging out with at least 5 people on any given day. people are always stopping by here and i never get a chance to be alone (i also have 2 roomates) even if i wanted to haha. but it doesnt bother me, hanging out with people and just discussing things and enjoying yourself smoking weed and being relaxed is prolly my #1 favorite thing to do. i absolutely thrive on the company of others, i just genuinely enjoy being around other people, and i think bud kind of naturally enhances that appreciation of others for me... id literally go insane if i was sitting home all day with not hanging out with any friends. its quite the opposite for me i guess. when im stoned i never shut up.. i will talk your ear off if you give me the chance. its like when i smoke weed it removes (or at least dials back) the brain-to-mouth filter and i say whatever i feel like, not worrying what other people or going to say or think about me. now i dont mean that i end up saying stupid shit that i later regret, its just that my mind is racing and getting some thoughts, ideas or concepts out with other people whose company i enjoy seems to be very rewarding to me
when im stoned, imma wreck. I talk out loud to everyone and i never shutup and i say funny shit. im high as shit and dont give a fuck what i do so i talk a lot. if your always high and dont give shit about anything, than dont give a shit what you say and how people think. just walk in wherever your going acting like you dont give a fuck and and just say whatsever on your mind to people.
How about if you vaporize? I know smoking can possibly take a toll on your health. But when you Vaporize, you don't hurt your lungs or anything. You're just feeding your body with pure THC. I usually like to stay by myself, and keep to myself because whenever I'm out with my friends a lot of Drama happens. So I find myself being content with solitude. I don't think that's bad at all. It's just being independent. When I need something I have enough confidence to go to the mall myself and get it. I work at a job where I have to socialize with people and I do.