i've been gay for sometime now but i cant come up with enough confidence to tell my parents is this because im ashamed and is it ok to be gay at 13? btw is it gay if you like gay porn and like anal sex but want to go out with a girl???
As a bi guy at 22, i can relate. It takes a while to get used to your sexuality. Don't feel ashamed! My biggest pet peeve is the amount of suffering gay kids have to go through just because they're in school and its "not cool" to be gay. You have plenty of time to get comfortable with your sexuality. At 13 I had incredible grief for being bi, as it sounds like you might be when you say "wanting to go out with a girl" but also liking the idea of gay sex. So don't spend too much time thinking about it and live your life as though it doesn't matter all that much if you are gay or straight or somewhere in between. Don't worry, you'll get there