Just another bump in our road. She's still addicted to heroin. she used only 6 or 7 times (or so she says) and stopped around december or new years.. but she's had these recurring urges for it and tingling pains in her arms (which shake sometimes, uncontrolably. I'm assuming it's from the heroin.. ). As much as we've talked about it, yesterday she asked me (over the phone) how I would feel if she did "it" again. She told me that for some reason (probably stress), she really had the urge to do it again, but an extreme urge like more than usual. I think she basically needed me to threaten her about it. At first I said I couldn't just leave her because of it, and that i'd have to get her help no matter what. But then I said I really may have to leave after she gets the help she needs. After that, she said "I won't do it, then." She told me that she doesnt want to lose me, and I believe her. It's just so hard.. It's a problem for us. Not just her. I don't want to see her go back to it and deteriorate, but I can't allow it to happen again and I have to be tough about it. But it's hard to continue giving her the support she needs (and I'm basically the only one supporting her through this) when I can't keep watch over her and reassure her that the temptation of going up to that smack dealer isn't worth it. The answer (at least for me) isnt to get rid of her. I love her, it's not gonna happen. I just wonder if this will make us stronger when it's all over..