Severe depression and personality disorders

I know I have the first, the second I can only speculate about...

 

You know...you might find you are a lot happier when you stop trying to address labels to your problems. I know that's how I found a bit of happiness in this bleak, bleak world. And for the love of God, don't let them medicate you. Anti-depressants are the biggest joke I've ever heard of.

 

Not all anti depressives are a joke, without the mood stabilizers I am on I would not be able to drive a car or be in public places due to panic attacks.

 

Yeah...I smoke pot for that. Not discrediting your prescription or anxiety at all, though, just saying I'm scared as all hell of prescription shit. I won't even go to the doctor about my anxiety, I do not want to be doped up out of my mind, nor do I want to be physically dependent on something like that. But I don't really drive at all because of it...sometimes to work, which is less than a mile away. I used to be terrified of the world...I'm getting better. I walked through a swarm of hundreds, perhaps even a couple thousand people this weekend and I didn't have a panic attack or a breakdown. I was so proud of myself. It's hard as hell to work through shit like that, but when you do, it's just such an amazing feeling of accomplishment.

 

Congrats on beating that part of anxiety, thats a large step forward.

 

So truly spoken:2thumbsup:

 

what makes you think you're more miserable than everyone else?

maybe you just need to find ways to deal with your unhappiness besides anti-depressants.

 

I never said I thought that I'm more miserable than anyone else... And as for antidepressants, I am all set with any of em'. All of these SSRI's, SNRI's, and MAOI's I just don't like what they do to your brain. Honestly, the only thing that keeps me from seeking help for my depression is the fact that 99% of doctors will just be all "oh, here's some prozac. Have a nice day." Kinky Ramona- I understand what you are saying about not labeling my problems, it makes perfect sense. Thanks for the advice all, I appreciate any and all input on this thread.

 

I assume by your location you mean adderall? how much are you fucking around with that?

 

Stay away from any drugs for a while and look into meditation, yoga, and the Buddha.

 

You should find the root of your depression. If your life basically sucks, then depression is a normal emotional reaction and the cure involves fixing the circumstances that are bringing you down.

 

Lol, actually no I can't stand speed. I used to do a lot of adderall in high school though. No, by amp I mean:

 

Just out of curiosity- what is your diet like and how much exercise are you getting?

 

Well I don't get a whole lot of exercise but I made some chili a couple days ago and used that to make some bomb ass chili dogs for dinner tonight. Most nights I have a good square meal meat, veggies, grains like rice occasionally. I think I have a pretty good diet. I walk a lot not having a license, that's my exercise really.

 

Doesn't sound all that bad actually. Walking for the sake of walking (as opposed to having to be somewhere) might give you some time to work things through mentally. If you know and trust someone who is aware of your challenges they might be a good sounding board... otherwise walking alone can be remarkably therapeutic I've found. You may not experience what I have but it gives you an avenue to explore in trying to contain and otherwise limit the lows. Join a gym and take some aggressions out on the iron.

 

See a naturopath or even better...a homoeopath...

I've treated lots of clients for depression and panic attacks and had good success...no prescription drugs...all natural.

and as much as I love a good smoke....pot ADDS to depression unfortunately...especially long term use

 

I had some very bad people in my life. To deal with the stress of having bad people in my life, I drank a lot, medicated myself with SSRI's, and took my frustrations out on close friends and former fiancee. I lost my fiancee and a lot of friends during this period, making myself more depressed. It's a vicious cycle, and it didn't really stop until I hit rock bottom.

Anyway, my story is long, and actually ends very well. But the point is I agree with you. You can't be in a terrible environment and presume that yoga, diet, religion, or medicine will magically make everything all right.

Sometimes you need change. :sunny:

As far as antidepressants, they can help by preventing the re-uptake of a neurotransmitter (5HT) associated with mood. They're only effective for a short time frame, and they should be prescribed with care alongside with counseling.

They can be helpful, but they only work for a short time frame. It's not a permanent fix.
http://www.plosmedicine.org/article/info:doi/10.1371/journal.pmed.0050045


Good Scenario for antidepressants:

You just got out of a messy divorce with your husband, and you are prescribed zoloft while you talk to a counselor while you start looking at new ways to begin your life. You're tapered off zoloft after about 6 months.

Bad Situation for Antidepressants:

You were mistreated as a child and by some sort of Freudian logic, you seek out and marry an abusive husband. You deal with this stress by taking a bunch of prozac and valium while your life continues to spiral out of control.

As for the OP... I don't know anything about your life, or how to solve your depression. Nobody does. You'll have to figure that one out for yourself. But I truly wish you well.

 

Thank you for the advice everyone, in a few months I will be relocating to a new state and hopefully things will start looking up from there. I think part of the reason for my depression would be my being unemployed for about a year now but I just got a job :2thumbsup: unfortunately I can't start work until about the middle of January as I'm not needed until then, I also have work shoveling snow for a snoody rich people community for $15 an hour the only problem with that is that there is no work if there is no snow. I continue to seek part time employment somewhere else but there arent a whole hell of a lot of jobs to be had out there at the moment.

 

What kinda things can be done?? I have severe PTSD and am on a truckload of different happy pills that i would like to be free of. I've done therapy with LCSW but that doesnt help........and I need help.