ok. so i used to cut myself real bad when i was younger and had problems and shit. but lately there has been these "breakthrough experiences" where i get so upset i just start slashing at myself again. if i owned a gun i would not be typing this right now why do i do it? i do not know and i always regret it, but its the only answer at the time, does anyone understand, please, i need help.
I completley understand, I cut myself whenever I get upset and if I had a gun I wouldnt be here either. PM me or instant message me on aim *hugs*
You probably do it because it's way for you to ease your pain but you should think about joining a support group, they can help you out way better with this problem than anyone else can.
ok look i know where you are coming from. i used to cut myself too and sometimes get these massive urges to kill myself or just do it again. but you have to remeber that its all here, right in that head of yours. only you can make yourself change. you have to look at yourself and say, okay, what am i angry at? most probably you are angry at yourself for something... is it that X? well, figure out why X is bothering, and try to understand and visualize where you want to go with X- do you want to end it? do you want to talk to X? do you want to show X how you feel? why are you looking at it this way: if you had a weapon to kill yourself you would be gone right now. you dont have the weapon to kill yourself. mother nature put you in this world to be yourself. and so many peopel would be sad if you did. believe me- every single person in this world makes a difference. you also need to know what you are getting out of cutting yourself. why do you go to that and not for a jog in the park? or something else? pm me if you want to talk. just please dont do anything. im here for you , everyone is.
I won't tell you the world is a great place worth living for and all that bullshit, because honestly, it isn't the truth. The world sucks, it's a pit of shit. But despite that, suicide and self-mutilation are two of the dumbest things you could do, especially at a young age. I won't say get psychiatric help, because they won't help unless you want to be helped. And if you want to be helped badly enough, you can help yourself. So do what you have to do to attempt happiness. And if you need to just live in the day, and not think about tomorrow or yesterday at all, then do it. Besides, the odds are, you're just bored. That's the number one reason teens cut or kill themselves. Simply because there's nothing happening and nothing's happened thus far, and because teens are often thinking of what they want now as opposed to what they'll need tomorrow, they think there will never be anything happening. But if you get off your ass and make things happen, even small things, you'll be surprised with the result.
http://kidshealth.org/teen/ Getting Help If you have been thinking about suicide, get help right away, rather than simply hoping your mood might improve. When a person has been feeling down for so long, it's hard for him to understand that suicide isn't the answer - it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Talk to anyone you know as soon as you can - a friend, a coach, a relative, a school counselor, a religious leader, a teacher, or any trusted adult. Call your local emergency number or check in the front pages of your phone book for the number of a local suicide crisis line. These toll-free lines are staffed 24 hours a day, 7 days a week by trained professionals who can help you without ever knowing your name or seeing your face. All calls are confidential - nothing is written down and no one you know will ever find out that you've called. There is also a National Suicide Helpline - 1-800-SUICIDE.
i used to do it too. but if you really did want to kill yourself, you would find a way- you haven't hit bottom. you are using at as a coping tool right now, but it will just make your situtation more difficult. so just say f it, the world is fucked up but i will make it through this. you can take this advice or leave it. because i have been in both situations. but i do hope you find alittle comfort in all the people that don't even know you, but are making an effort. and i hope things get better soon. jill
I feel for you, I also have been there. For most of my teenage years I was very depressed and violent towards the world, and myself. I was not only self destructive, but also contemplated suicide many times. What finally brought me out of it was coming to the realization that I no longer wanted my life to be shit. Basically when you boil it all down life is a matter of perception, everything that happens to you could be perceived differently by anyone, including yourself. I know it sounds odd to say when you feel dark, but you need to try to find things that help you get in touch with your spirit, and help you find a true sense of self. By true sense of self I don’t mean what others tell you, or the ideas that you have adopted to define who you are, but the actual truth. When I started to do this I found that I wasn’t in fact what I thought I was ( a loser, nothing, worthless, void) but that those are the labels that society placed upon me. I am not going to tell you your life will turn into a joyous thing, but more over, that you are on this earth for a reason. We are all as one on this planet, our actions (past, present, and future) impact our fellow man in ways we cannot hope to understand, you could be here for some big task that might change someone’s life in a vast way, and in that effect, someone might come around and change your life. ~p3@c3~
that's sooo sad... i would say not to do it but then again I would be a hypocrite.... I use to cut myself but now I don't... I whip eleastics at my wrist until they nearly bleed and i burn my nails and dig my nails into my skin until they bleed and stuff....
ok lets see... I'll try helping but I'm not sure If I would do any good with it... Yes most self mutilation is to express feelings. or make slash marks on my wrists with red pen or marker. When I cut myself it was for the blood.... I liked seeing it come out of me, I enjoyed the fact that it was just mine and nobody elses, that it all belonged to me. I did it too when I was in pain and upset but also at times when I was anxious or bored. Instead of using cutting as a alternative try elastic whipping at your wrists... I know it's hard not to cut yourself because I went through all that it feels like some sort of power that's forcing me to do so. It was so very hard for me. It still is extremely hard for me (but I made a promise to my best friend that I wouldn't anymore because she was so upset and crying) so I made that promise and instead of doing that I got into elastic whipping. If you find someone you love soooo much and care about a lot (one person) then make that promise to them... If you keep it then it's a sign of trust and if you try holding onto that promise it will get easeir and easeir although it still will be pretty hard. You don't want scars for the future that will just remind you of all the pain and darkness you went through and the torture. You can do something about it if you put your mind to it. It will be hard but in the end you'll thank yourself for it.
