ever feel like youre repeating yourself with either speech or choices you make? im so tired of this. i will never learn and i just keep on fucking things up. i cant say the right things, i cant be the right person, i cant even see anything for what it is anymore. i cant sleep comfortably anymore either. i ended up poping bubble wrap all night constantly thinking about somehting that isnt nothing. i want to be this lovly caring respectful and creative person and i feel like its in me but eveything i do or say comes out wrong. whats going to happen when all my hope is lost? i dont know what to do anymore.