ever feel like youre repeating yourself with either speech or choices you make? im so tired of this. i will never learn and i just keep on fucking things up. i cant say the right things, i cant be the right person, i cant even see anything for what it is anymore. i cant sleep comfortably anymore either. i ended up poping bubble wrap all night constantly thinking about somehting that isnt nothing. i want to be this lovly caring respectful and creative person and i feel like its in me but eveything i do or say comes out wrong. whats going to happen when all my hope is lost? i dont know what to do anymore.
Are you at a crossroads? Are you wanting to go a different direction than life is seemingly pulling you?
He asked if you were at a crossroads or if life is pulling you in a different direction than you want it to. He means that you need to analyze everything in your life to find the root of the problem, because you won't be able to solve the problem and move on if you don't know what the problem is.
YOU are not the problem. It's a psychological thing or a chemical imbalance. Maybe you're suffering from clinical depression or something. I was clinically depressed for a while, and I think I am again, and it sounds like a similar situation to what you described in the OP. Clinical depression causes anxiety, restlessness, lack of concentration, lack of motivation, and a whole bunch of other shit. I'm currently suffering from all of those symptoms, myself, and it sucks major donkey sack.
im basically sad because this guy i still like (ex-boyfriend but good friend now) wants me to stop liking him. its not that easy for me to stop liking him. im a girl and i flirt with him. and hes too awesome. i flat out told him (byt he sooo already knew) that i still liked him and he told me he understnads and still wants me to stop. so now i feel like i cant talk to him or see him because of how idiotic and stupid i am. i also feel very very embarrased
i ask him to help me out weith things so much too so its like i keep on wasting his time that he could use to do the things he likes too.
Well, I guess you know what's the problem is then. Do you really think all of that is what's messing you up so much right now? Keeping you from sleeping and all that? Find something else to keep your mind occupied, as hard as that may be, and all will be well.
i dont think all of that is keeping me from sleeping. i did say that to him last night right before i went to bed in my defence. i guess thats my only option, to forget about it. maybe i 'll actually finish learning the guitar.
