i think they are tryin to kill me...seriously! i think they are tryin to kill me off and remould me into another christian clone... helppppp
.. i actually counted the minutes before dok would post .. twas 8 minutes 46 seconds .. was getting worried and was going to alert him to this post on msn!!!! hehehe
my pastor is making me hate my church...which is not good as my church also happens to be my job..and my job pays my rent..and lasallalalaksasihosafzlr rags
damn.... i dont understand that will come back in a while to read it again .. meanwhile i go practise my club juggling for a fe hours in the sunshine by the river
i cannot wait to leave this place...i feel so restricted...i cant breathe. like they are tryin to suck all the life out of me...put me in a little box. hate hate hattetetteteteteteteettttaatattatreh. raaaa. rescue meee. i cant hack this!
If I find a religion that complements my life, that will be the case. For now it's no religion and no controlling
had enough...had enough...had enough... i have never felt so uncomfortable in my own church before... when we were worshippin my pastor kept turning around and looking at me...giving me proper nasty looks...like he was checkin up on me...making sure i was 'getting into it' or whatever. it made me so angry!! like he could tell from my outawrd appearance whetehr i was worshippin god or not...its so stupid...in sat down in the end and scowled at him for the rest of the worship time!! pathetic i know but he made me feel so rubbish and filled my mind with anger...all i wanted to do was focus on god..but his checkin up on me ruined it. ohhhhh...i hate being an angry person
sweetey, you are not angry many words could be used to describe you, but angry is not one of them!!! try not to let him get to you, focus on the future and in making it better
thankyou both, your very lovely and encouraging... i am tryin to sepeater myself from him but i cant physically becasue i work alongside him every day. however i have now been informed that i am to leave work after my current project is up..it seems he has had enough of me and i guess ive made it pretty obvious the feeling is mutual. so end of july im outta there for good...scary coz i wont have a job a house or any cash but i will have something so much more sacred.. freedom!! wooohooo!!
Personally i don't believe in organized religion, the idea of everything bad your've ever done being judged by an entity after you die i just find laughable. Instead i believe that you judge yourself and making fair and good decisions is what makes you deserving of love and friendship. Hope that made some sense(i don't always). peace
Don't sweat it. All that shit will follow. Just trust the universe (or god, if you prefer) to provide. You so done the right thing by getting outta there. Anyway, sure you got enough mates who'd sort you out if the shit really hit the fan.