I lost my mother 5 years ago. I have a recurring type dream. The dream isn't exactly the same but it goes like this: My mother will come back into my life & basically I'm initially happy that she's back. After a while though I don't except that reality in my dream and I demand to now what happened to her & where she's been at that point I awaken from the dream. It's always odd to me because I accept every dream I have except this one. I would think I would just enjoy having her in my dream. Anyone have any ideas?
I have a question, [in the dream] why do you demand to know what happened to her? I'm sorry if this question is too invasive, but do you know her actual cause of death? Reason I ask, I'm trying to connect the subconsciousness of your dream with the reality in your waking state. I don't want to make any suggestions until I know more. I don't want to influence your answer.
I do, she died of a heart attack. Unfortunately women have different signs of heart attacks from men. I had/have guilt that I didn't do enough to get her to a hospital. I'm not sure if it's an anger thing or I feel abandoned. If someone is abruptly out of your life for years & suddenly returns I'd think it's normal that you would want to know what they were doing during that time. I wake up obviously sad & it's a pretty intense dream. Every now and then I'll have a recurring dream or a dream that continues or has elements of a previous one. This has been the most recurring them of dream I've had, probably once a month or so.
I see. I think you already know the answers. You answered yourself. Do you see it? You know, trust yourself.
I understand the basic reasoning of why I would react that way if it were a real life situation. I have outrageous nonsensical dreams all the time but I accept those while I'm dreaming. I also know that she had passed away in the dream. That's why I don't get why my dream abruptly ends at that point. I think that's the part I'd like to get some theories on. I have a couple, but wanted to get some ideas.
