really confused need advice

So i have been reading lots of websites and all its doing it making me ever more confused. I have been into transsexual porn for some time now, and i got into it because i enjoy anal sex. It started with strap-on porn and then i found transsexual porn. Well a few years ago i finally decided i wanted to stop just watching porn and try anal sex.

Well after being with a few transsexual woman and women with strap-ons i met on the internet i found i really enjoyed it. However i want to be both a top and a bottom with a transsexual woman and this is where i get confused. I find it hard to have a relationship because most transsexual women call me gay for wanting them to top me. So i read up on it and i guess people call me a "Chaser" because i like anal. I don't like anal with just TS women though, i have been with women who have fucked me with a strap-on and i enjoy that just as much. Although it was usually just a one time thing, the few women i have found willing to do this said that they just wanted to try it, and weren't interested in dating a man that enjoyed taking it up the ass. One was even a lesbian that said she just wanted to see a man take it up the ass.

This is going into detail below but i feel its vital to my question.

Well after being called gay from these women and reading it online i thought i should try being with a man because people and sites keep telling me i'm gay. So i met a man on craigslist and he was very feminine but i wasn't very attracted when i saw a pic because he still looked to masculine. I decided to try it anyway, i go to met with him and we had a few drinks and then back to his place. He kissed me and it kind of made me sick, he saw the look i got on my face and said he will try something else. So he told me to close my eyes and unzipped my pants and started to give me a blowjob. I started to get hard but when i opened my eyes and saw him doing it i went limp. He seemed frustrated and asked if i had been with a man before and i told him "no but i have been with transsexuals" and he got offended and said i'm not a gay and told me to get out.

So i don't get it. Even just a few months ago i was dating a woman for a few months and she found transsexual porn and broke up with me because she said i'm gay (she also thought it was gay of me to ask her to fuck me with a strap-on). Transsexual women don't want to date me because they don't want to top me and call me gay if i ask. And gay men say i'm not gay. So i don't know what to do... I mean if i enjoy anal sex from time to time but i mostly like to top, should i just keep trying with men even though i'm not into it because everyone else keeps calling me gay.

 

don't concern yourself with what people call you. i would try it with a guy again but try and find one you are attracted to. its been my experience that this sort of thing is best done with a friend or someone you feel comfortable with and trust. sexuality is all about trying new things until you find what you like. another thing you may want to look into is F2M transsexuals, but they probably wont want to be topped.

 

problem is i haven't found a man i'm attracted to, unless they are dressed up in women's clothing and makeup ect. I just enjoy anal sex, both from transsexual women and from women with strap-ons. Only people i can seem to find that are into that with men are escorts for the most part though.

 

im sure that there is a guy who is into that somewhere.

 

So even though i'm not attracted to men, if i enjoy anal sex then what people are telling me is true i am in fact gay?

If that is the case how do i get over not being sexually attracted to men unless they are dressed up and shaved ect to look like a woman? I know relationships aren't all about sex, but i don't want to be only attracted to my partner if they are dressed up. And that is what i want a relationship with someone but it seems women and transsexual women can't accept the fact i like to receive anal sex.

 

no i wouldnt say you were gay but you are not entirely straight either. you are atracted to dick tho so why not try it with men.

 

just because a guy is attracted to the sensation of anal sex doesn't mean they are gay.. There are lots of females who enjoy returning anal sex to a guy.. While being topped per say may seem a bit overboard to most i'm sure there is either a submissive female who would be into this or maybe even a dom who truly enjoys this type of sexual experience.. Saying he's attracted to cock comes off a bit cheeky imho i would say he's attracted to the sensation of anal sex which is extremely pleasant when done correctly to a male by a female while i've never been fucked with a strap on or have experienced transgender sex at all.. I hope he can find the ying to his yang.. Best Of Luck Keep Searching

 

You aren't gay if you aren't attracted to men lol that's is after all the definition of being gay.
It will be hard to find a women to be in a long term relationship with that will be willing to use a strap on on you but you will find her. I am a women who uses a strap on on my husband lol just ease into the conversation once you meet a girl and maybe even use the bend over boyfriend dvds to introduce it as opposed to tranny porn. Good luck and forget lables just be you.