Ready to give up

I'm just ready to give up on this bullshit called life man. My grandparents are slowely dieing in the hospital and I have no way to go see them. My mom just went to the hospital this morning for sudden loss of vision. Neither of my parents tell me about this shit. My dad is too fuckin lazy and a duesche to do anything around this house, all he does is work a few hours a day, goes out on "senic drives" for 4-5 days at a time, and then sleeps, so me and my mom do everything. He is so lazy that he waited 3 hours after he was supposed to bring our dogs in (I bring them in and out and take care of them but I couldn't do it yesterday) too tell me he was too sick to do it and one of them was in distress and yelping so I needed to bring them in right now. He said he saw her outside, so I looked outside and she was basically hanging and choking on her lead so I ran out frantically after my dad told me (instead of going out and getting them 3 hours before hand or going out and saving the dog himself). It took me neraly 20 minutes to get it from around her neck and get her inside because it was so bad. This dickhole is trying to get me to pay him more money for a a trip to Mexico I went on (which was 3 weeks ago) after I already paid him for everything and he failed to tell me the money I already paid him did not include tax and now I am broke from that trip. I can't figure out how the fuck to get anywhere to visit any of my family, including my cousin who is like my brother and I haven't seen in for fucking ever. I am broke so I can't pay for anything. I have to fill out a shitload of fucking shit and train for football before I go to college but I have no fuckin time and I am insanely depressed because of all this shit. I only have one really good friend I can talk to about this shit and she has her own problems to deal with and itsn't available to talk.

Just thought I'd vent all this shit

EDIT: Did I mention I have no weed so I can't at least relax a little?

 

sorry to hear about your trouble mate. life is never as bad as it seems, at least you have your health and a place to stay, alot of people have it alot worse.

where you going to play ball at man i was at UGA for a while playing

 

Just playin Div. III, maybe. I mean I am goin in a month and I am not nearly in shape enough cause all this shit is happenin

 

hey man division III football is still pretty good man, you should be happy bout that, and use it as motivation to get in shape, and sorry to hear bout the troubles with your family, but you sound like you are strong, being a football player, so the next time your dad doesnt help your dog, or if he tries to charge you "tax"(seriously, what kind of family member charges tax on someone who just got back from the trip 3 weeks ago and they are broke?"), just knock your dad in the fuckin face next time, teach him a lesson to get up off his ass once in a while and do something productive with his life.

 

yeah well I know DIII is a little different than DI. When i was a UGA we had a 6:30 study hall everyday followed by class and then practice. Its a rough time man. I partyed alot and ended up getting into some trouble and now im back home though. Theres gonna be alot of tough decisions to make and now after all of this shit that has happend ive decided not to play anymore even though i still have the capability. Instead im going to Tulum mexico in oct. to volunteer and teach and get certified in my TEFL course. When i finish that im gonna finish up college as a reg. student. my best advice if your serious about it, is to hit the weightroom hard. Idk what Pos. you play but as a lineman your best friend is stamina and im pretty sure most other positions will agree. also dont envy the life of a regular student to much. there gonna be out partying and chillen when your studying or practicing. stick with the other players and stick it out.

 

tsk tsk tsk typical tennage angst

 

Friend, I really feel for you. I just went thru a year of awful shit that i'm recovering from. I'm really sorry that your freind who you can talk to is unavailable. The worst feeling is a feeling of being trapped in a terrible situation, and even worse is family stuff, because you can't get away from those people. And when a parent is letting you down - nothing can replace that.

Can I suggest something? even if you get to college and it feels like all your troubles are behind you, find somebody to talk to. You've been done wrong as a kid, and that is going to affect you, if youi don't get some kind of ways of dealing with it. This shit always comes back round in cycles - I don't know if that make sense, but I would offer that as advice.

Good luck
& here's a little love your way.

LN

 

Wow, you described that well. I know how all that feels and you hit the nail on the head.

 

kick your dads ass

 

I would have given up sometime after snorting keif....




Well, I've had 4 suicides in my family within' this year, my grandparents are dieing. My moms health is really bad, my dad's been drinking VERY heavy since he was 15, I'm not sure how long his liver is gonna hold out. My ex-girlfriend who is now married maybe havign my kid. I have seroius anexity/paranioia problems. I could go on and on, have I thought about suicide? Yea, but, I'd never do it. I get a kick out of just observing all the bullshit in this world, it's so ironic it's funny.

 

I was thinking the same thing.

 

Good luck with your stuff man. I'm gonna probablly either be OL or FB. I am short but heavy, fast, my center of gravity is low, and I can hit hard. If I get faster I am going to be a FB if I get stronger I am gonna be OL (which is what the coach told me I will probablly be).

You are tsking me for being depressed and angry because my grandparents are dieing (yet I have no way of seeing them before they die), my mom is in the hospital, and my dad is an asshole? You are a moron and never talk to me again.

Thanks man you helped a lot and I appreciate it. I send the love right back for the shit you are still getting over and dealing with.

I have before. Up until I was 16 he used to hit me all the time until I finally grew strong enough that I kicked his ass if he would touch me. I find that it helps nothing to hit him, he just becomes more of an asshole.

Turkey Stuffing: Don't talk to me anymore man, you give me shit about snorting keif twice because you are a moron and can't let a subject drop even though it is dead. You want to know why your family members commited suicide? Because of you.

Now I am gonna vent some more because it makes me feel better:
My Uncle has been in jail for half a year because he went crazy and shot at a hotel owner and the cops. He thought he saw a baby in the corner crying when he was at the hotel and there was no baby there. He was drunk and hallucinating (not hallucinating because of the alcohol, but because he has numerous mental illnesses) and you know what the courts ruled? They said he was not acting because of his mental illnesses, even though 3 phycologists said he was mentally unstable and was acting on his illnesses. They threw him in jail instead of giving him the treatment he needs and they will not give him many of the medications he needs.
My cousin who is like my brother is throwing his life away and becoming a drug dealer and not working in school or baskettball even though he has great potential to make it to Div I. I know if I just visited him for a week I could help him and get him off this path which will lead him to nothing but I have no money or a means to get there and my parents will not let me go visit him or my grandparents because they do not want to pay for a plane ticket even though they have more than enough money.
My Aunt who is like a second mother to me, and taught me many of the things I know, has a terminal illness and has been constantly sick for 3 years and will eventually die from it. My other uncle who is like a better father than my own has very bad diabetes and had a stroke a year ago and has not been the same since.
My sister and brother-in-law are virtually broke and my parents will not give them any money. My sister barely gets enough money from bartending to support them and my brother-in-law got fired form his job a few weeks ago and hasn't found a job yet. I am sure they will be fine, but they are having a rough time right now and it sucks to see it because I love them very much.

HURRAH FOR FUCKING CRAPPY SHIT ASS LIFE!!

BTW: I highly recommend bare knuckle boxing a punching bag on pain killers for anyone having a bullshit of a time. It relieves a shitload of stress.

 

Im not going to say your situation isnt bad..but my brother died june 6th, he was the closest person to me, the only one who will ever know me, he was apart of me. We got through COUNTLESS tough times with my crack addicted parents, and any problems we had. We smoked so much weed and did so many drugs together, that might not seem good but the bond that grew between us, was indescribable. He was like a dad, brother, and a counselor to me. He was the only thing i had and ever will have. It was supposed to be us going through life together. Now hes gone, and ive never been close to the same person. Everyday is darker, depressing, lonely, and seems to have no guidance. Im a mess who trys to cover it up with fake friends and drugs.

MY life sucks. But remember to be happy, id much rather have my life than anyone else's in the world. I say that with pride.

 

LOL, I was joking, but that just shows how mature you are. If you don't wana see my posts block me.... Pretty simple.

 

Man I feel for you. I try to cover it up the same way and I put on a facade of happiness and never talk about shit with anyone except my one friend cause I have no one except her to talk to. I love my cousin (he is my best friend and like a brother) and if he died I would feel the same way you do. I hope it gets better for us both man.

 

youve got fucked up issues to joke around about something like that. hes right. you're a retard. go win at the internets some more.

 

Thanks

 

Man were all depressed and suicidal...maybe its the weed...lol. Ive been having a really hard time lattly too. I had a complete mental breakdown last night and was freaking out. I have am about to start my juinor year of highschool...at my FIFTH school in two years!!! My brother and my cousin just moved away. I am preatty bad socially, and they were really my only two friends. I know that there not dead...but it still sucks having them gone. I havent hung out with a kid my age in 6 months. But you know what ive realized? The only reason to live is to enjoy yourself, so you might as well just go out and have fun. Do what ever the hell you want. If you are about to kill yourself, pack up your stuff, get a shitload of drugs, and do whatever the hell you want. Its better than nothing right? Think about just going around and doing whatever the hell you feel like for a month knowing it wouldent matter since you would be dead otherwise.

 

Man I used to get kicked out of schools all the damn time. I think I got kicked out of 9 schools before I got help. Go to a good phycologist man it helped me a lot back then. Weed is not the reason I am depressed, if it the reason you are then you need to stop smoking. I am depressed because all this shit is going wrong at the same damn time.
As for your advice: I would not do ANYTHING that I want to do. I would not harm another person just for my own enjoyment.

 

I wish I could say or do something to support you, man. All I can think of is to keep you in my prayers. You mentioned that you've been to counseling and it helped. Could you do more of that? I don't know where you're going to college, but they usually have services available to students, and probably for free or as part of your tuition. You might look into that. And you have us. Most of the comments (tho not all) seem supportive.