Sexuality Well let’s start with sexuality. Who doesn’t like to talk/read about sexy things? I haven’t delved too much into sexuality studies so this will kind of be an ongoing conversation with myself, any tips/books/random thoughts are welcome. Help mold my mind! So… where to start. I enjoy literalness. Makes me less nervous about misunderstanding people…. but that’s another post. sex·u·al·i·ty [sek-shoo-al-i-tee ] noun 1. sexual character; possession of the structural and functional traits of sex. 2. recognition of or emphasis upon sexual matters. 3. involvement in sexual activity. 4. an organism’s preparedness for engaging in sexual activity. I’m a woman. Been so since birth. Tits, vag and all. Sexual matters? I’m a rather sexual being. It’s on my mind, I like talking about it, I like making sweet, sweet, love. So I recognize sexual matters and place great(more than I would prefer) emphasis on sex in my life. Well… I mean. I masturbate a bit, but I’ve decided not to partake in sexual activities with others for a while. I’m ready.(Insert spongebob visual.) I’m really rather horny, most, if not all of the time. Hmm… Gives the general rundown of some rather relivant information about me and my sexuality: I can have it, I want it, I like. Let’s google sexuality… wikipedia… or apa. Ok let’s do some apa action.(Insert disco pronunciation of action, you know. ac-sean.) http://www.apa.org/topics/sexuality/index.aspx “Sexuality has three stages: Desire is an interest in being sexual. Excitement is the state of arousal that sexual stimulation causes. And orgasm is sexual pleasure’s peaking. A sexual disorder occurs when there’s a problem in at least one of these stages. So basically: desire, excitement, climax. Hey, my self analysis turned out to be actually relevant to the study of sexuality. I used to have problems with desire, which, in hindsight, had some pretty glaringly obvious causes. *sigh* Climax is always pretty tricky, I only have vaginal climaxes a few times a year. Clitoral stimulation is easy for me to do and impossible for others… except for one other(J). *sigh* Thinking of sex and relationships makes me supremely sad. I think this is a huge reason why I need to continue my celibate spell. I don’t want to be sad when thinking about it and I don’t want overwhelming negative thoughts and feelings to override the now and the excitement. I think it will take time, but I’ll get there. … So the question that seems to pop up more than the others: gay, bi, straight. Certainly not straight. Could be a bit bi. More gay than anything. I much prefer dating women. I’m not opposed to dating men, but don’t actively seek relationships with them. If I find someone special and have an amazing connection *sigh* then I’ll let it happen. I’m not opposed to dick, would it be offensive if call myself a lesbian even though? I have a strong lean in that direction. I’m giving it a go, identifying with the word lesbian. I know there’s all those new words for sexuality, but lesbian is such a powerful word to me. hmm… ho·mo·sex·u·al·i·ty [hoh-muh-sek-shoo-al-i-tee] noun sexual desire or behavior directed toward a person or persons ofone’s own sex. I certainly have that. A lesbian would be a woman with homosexual desires. Not necessarily all encompassing. I feel comfortable with this. I’m a lesbian. It feels right. I’m SURE this sexuality convo will be continued.
