Quitting Weed due to Anxiety

TL;DR: Wed is doing me more harm than good.

I've decided for the foreseeable future that I'm going to quit weed. I've tried my hardest to beat the anxiety; whether the social anxiety that manifests and magnifies tenfold when with others, or the anxiety when by myself where I analyise the high too much or judge myself or my actions. My subconscious comes out. I smoked two nights ago, the first properly in over a month, and I tried my best beforehand to get into the mindset that I'm going to enjoy it and have no anxiety feelings, but it's such a cognitive function that it's bound to come out.

One anxiety thought just makes me feel I failed, and I then snowball with countless anxiety about the anxiety like a reoccurring cycle. My heart beats so fast, I feel like I'm sweating and I twitch; and for the first time ever two nights ago after a month of not smoking, I got pins in my hands, so obviously it is getting worse. Keep in mind that I knew it was just the weed, so I didn't think I was dying or having a heart attack, I just knew it was anxiety. I later tried to calm down to listen to music, but the anxiety was still judging it and thinking so much about it and my life and my person. Someone else posted that when they're high, it's like they have a 'This is your Life' self-analysis in your brain, and for me it's just realising the extent of my past and the insecure nature of my future.

The next day I'm depressed and the anxiety is still there. I tell myself it's just the high, but it's like the high self is arguing with the sober self. "What happens if what you're reassuring you with when sober are all false, and this is the truth?" The anxiety has made me paranoid that I've had many mental disorders, including OCD, ADD, schizophrenia and depersonalisation disorder.

Weed gives me such self-analysis and it has helped to an extent, but now it's just driving me crazy and it's almost becoming intrusive thoughts. At first it made me realise how much of an anxious kid I was, and I self-diagnosed myself with social anxiety. I still get other awesome feelings from weed, so that's why I'll obviously miss it; but it's like simultaneously I'm anxious and judging my reactions. Becoming in tune with the subconscious for me, is doing me more harm than good.

I wrote this post in a previous thread, 'how to cure weed anxiety?', and although it's helpful, I'm sick of battling. Trying to get over the anxiety.

Maybe later on in life when I'm older, not just 20, and my psyche is more stabilized and I'm more confident in my future and myself my anxiety will dimmer down. Any insightful responses would be awesome, and it would be great if there was a cure, but it appears not.

It sucks, because the more I've tried fixing the anxiety, it's like it's only become worse. I think I might stop treating myself psychologically and see someone.

I'd like to note joints don't do this, so if I smoke less it works, but some of the magic moments of marijuana for me has being really stoned.

Sorry for the long post. But I'm going to miss weed, but the anxiety is just getting worse, no matter how I try to combat it. It's a placebo effect that I can't get out of right now until an extended break.

Smoke one for me. x.

 

thats nice...

 

That exact shit happens to me. I hate it so much. What I found works though if you have money to buy weed all the time is to always smoke. Like start off slow to where you are happy when the high first hits you and then stop smoking. Then smoke after that high goes away and keep smoking and after like 3-4 days if you smoke all the time the anxiety goes away. But thats only if you can be high all the time or just even buzzing. That's the only way it worked for me but I stopped like a month ago and now it is happening all over again and I'm probably going to quit for a while now too.

 

Yeah, I felt it really subsided when I smoked frequently too as the tolerance is up. Then I stopped for awhile, then the anxiety came back. But simultaneously, it also kills the magic that no tolerance gives.

 

oh SHUT UP.
try getting anxiety even when you're sober, and after a month still experiencing it.
at least yours only came from actually being high. i started to get anxiety attacks while stone cold sober.. that was when i stopped smoking marijuana. its been almost two months and i still can't say i am completely over it.

stop smoking it.
you're lucky you can and won't experience anything after that.

 

I've had it without smoking it. And don't tell people to shut up man. It's not nice. I had it so bad I had to quit school. People thought I was crazy and doctors tried putting me in mental hospitals because they didn't know what was wrong with me. I had it everyday for years. And I still get it once in a while. I was 15 yrs old on 2mg xanax bars. Pills they rarely give out to even adults because it's so strong and that still didn't even work. I've been on so many pills that never worked. Pill's that would make me sleep 26 hours strait and pills that would make me so fucked up I never knew what I did for the entire months that i was on em. Just pure blank memory of months of my life. I've had it for 5 years now and it still didn't go away completely. So I could say to you... that you are lucky.

 

thats nice..

 

you don't say?
sorry.. i didn't mean to say shut up in a bad way. lol.
that's horrible. did you stop smoking weed when it happened?

 

The only way to say "shut up" in a good way is with a picture of boobs along with the comment.

 

Quitting weed due to anxiety
Makes you wonder about today's high society
Times past
You stand up too fast
Just to introduce variety
To the high-ety
Uhm,,

 

anxiety makes me wonder
about high society

 

I have mild to moderate anxiety when I'm sober, mainly social anxiety. Weed just intensifies it. But yes, you are quite correct, I'm very lucky to not have had an anxiety attack while sober.

 

.. it just sucks because sometimes i wonder whether i should have ever picked weed up. i was never an anxious person before i did it and before i had that panic attack. and today at work i had a trippy episode where i felt like everything was unreal. thank god it only lasted a few seconds.

 

Yea i stopped at first. But when I smoke it alone and meditate it actually helps the anxiety. To me it's a helper when you use it the right way. It makes your mind change it's perspective and pretty much show yourself why your getting it and how to overcome it. But it takes lots of time. It fully hasn't gone away but it slowly helps it.

 

thats nice..

 

maybe quitting it would rid the anxiety altogether... ?

 

LOL, that cracked me up and I'm not even stoned. Will be soon! YAAAH!

Sorry to hear bro. Same thing happens to my sons mom. She needs to mellow but cant handle weed anxiety.

 

I'm stopping weed due to memory and concentration. Notice i diddn't say quit. I'll smoke whenever i feel like i deserve it, but lately i feel weed is a handicap. And i love to drive and i'm trying to learn how to program. Yeah i do get some anxiety from weed, but then i try to suck it up, and if that doesn't work i don't give a fuck if i'm anxious anyways because being high is a priviledge.

 

Like most peops in this thread I get it now even when I'm not stoned. And I do get stoned 4 times day now, lowering it cause of, well, anxiety, and during the first 3 it's just enough for a good buzz. Hopefully when I stop getting high one day the anxietys gone.

I'm trying to quit cause of it too. Good luck to you guys, it's harder then I thought. Cause I want to quit when I have some, and then..well you know the deal.

 

Nope. it's the same either way. Sometimes its worse when I;m high and sometimes its worse when i'm not.