i was wondering, has anyone experienced a longing for the "trip world"? i feel like i love that aspect of the universe so much, that i would indulge maybe too much... is that possible? i know its dangerous to overuse them, and i dont think i want to, but ive been so fascinated by them that i cant wait to trip on DMT and maybe salvia one day and experience ego loss, and dissociative effects. i look forward to the insights on life more than anything, even though the experience itself would be so beautiful and life changing. ideas?
im pretty articulate and i think i look forward to it enough ( and i FEEL mentally prepared even though i think that's very difficult) that i think it would go really well for me. i just wonder if doing these drugs too much is gonna give me HPPD
Initially, yes, I long for the trip world. As I begin to come down from a trip, there are moments when I think I could feel this way forever and be happy with it, because it is so spectacular. However, once I am in the afterglow and then completely at baseline, I love reevaluating my sober mind and reflecting back on the trip in that state. I have found that as my experience level with psychedelics has increased, my longing and willingness to dose has decreased. There have been countless times that I was supposed to dose or thought about dosing, but when it came time to take it, I bailed because I felt so comfortable with my sober state of mind. That never would of happened the first times I obtained psychs, I would have ate them at first opportunity. I appreciate being sober so much more now, and for me, that had a lot to due with psychedelics. When you abuse psychedelics, there is the possibility of HPPD. I can't decide whether I have a very slight case of HPPD or if I am just more aware of how I perceive my senses now, but either way it is not disruptive to my life in any way. Whether you call it HPPD or not, the way I take in the world has definitely changed some, and in my opinion it is only for the better. This is from relatively responsible use; I have always spread trips out at least a week a part, preferably 2 weeks when doing higher doses.
thank you! this is pretty much how i was expecting things to pan out, and im glad to hear it. ive only taken them a handful of times now, roughly 6 times. only recently has the experiance been so intense as to make me think this way
