Posted This In Women's Issues Already. . .please Help

So I fucked my friends boyfriend. Yes I know I'm a fucking terrible person. He's six years older than me. They've been together for several years, have two kids and have their on off moments. When we first met we hit it off through arguing, it's something we did and still do for some odd reason. He's given off a vibe for quite a while now. He's an asshole to hide his real character, which he bears to me whenever he can. I fancy his real character.

One night we were drinking, just talking. He told me he laughed at his friend when he found out he was trying to "get with me". He told him I was too good and that he wasn't near my type. His girlfriend, my friend, was passed out in the other room. Then the atmosphere shifted. He mentioned he watched me mature, no it wasn't creepy it was sincere and pretty sweet. I turned 18 last January. He went on to mention that I never got to meet his younger brother when he came down to visit but didn't say anymore than that. Just brought up the meeting that never happened and didn't say another word about him. Not sure what the fuck that was about.

We've been close to fucking before but this time around we both just knew it was going to happen. Although before anything did happen I tried to stop it (even though I didn't want to) by telling him I was on my period. Didn't stop him. He was the one to mention "no feelings" and "sex is just sex" blahblahblah but let me tell you he wasn't treating me like I was just a casual one time fuck.

I like to be held down, he loves being rough, but his hands never once went around my wrists instead he laced his fingers through mine, even as I blew him, well one hand was behind my neck but you get the picture, he kissed my forehead, cheeks, nose and his kisses weren't filthy but sweet and teasing, he checked on me through out, asked if I was ok, was he being too rough, he caressed my hair, face, body even went as far as to mark my body, leaving a pretty obvious set on my neck. Afterwards we just held each other for a while, his girlfriend was still passed out thank fuck. We let our fingers draw on the others flesh or run through the others hair. He seemed sad as he mentioned that I would make whoever really happy. He even said he cared about me but didn't want to elaborate, just said that if I faked him out in the bedroom that there wouldn't be anymore of him for me. Then he wanted me to stay the night. I'm just wondering if it meant anything. I mean he brought up the no feelings thing and my previous lovers had a similar mind set and still weren't as caring or as sweet as he was. Help.

 

I'm glad you refer to his partner as not your friend! You wouldn't do that to a friend!
Your falling, not only for someone else's guy! But a creep!
Cheating is cheating, that's what your both doing!
He is a creep, when your old enough to understand, you will!
If you have any regard for anyone, you will stay away..that includes yourself!
That guy fancy's you, your young, and easy lead. What a creep!