Possibly bi-curious from a small midwest town...

Hello all,

I've recently been 'turned on' by things I've seen that has me questioning a lot about myself. I'm a 30m in serious relationship and I feel like I'm at a bit of a cross roads, if I dont explore these thoughts now, I might never get a chance.

I'm from a smaller midwestern town and feel like I have noone to turn to about this so looking for anything right now....

 

Hello to you, too, and welcome! First, if you're feeling... things about guys, despite what you were taught and told, it's normal and there are a lot of bi-curious guys out there so you're not alone in this. There's always this great urge to explore those thoughts and feelings - that's normal, too - but when you're in a relationship, being able to explore them isn't impossible but it is difficult.

 

Forums like are really good so you can talk to like-minded guys. I had thought about doing things with another guy since I was a teen. The urges were few and far between the first several years. I love women and have only dated women, but as the years went by the desire just kept increasing. By my early 30's I was masturbating much more often thinking about giving oral to a guy.

By my.mid 30's I was married, but the thoughts continued. I realized and accepted that I was bisexual. I got divorced at age 48 and decided it was finally time to just try it. I hooked up just to give a blowjob and loved it. I was so nervous but as soon as he entered my mouth I knew I had done the right thing. Hooked up with a few more guys, but now married again. But at 58 the urges are stronger than they have ever been. I want to be completely naked with another man, rubbing our bodies against each other, doing all kinds of things to each other. My attraction to guys is getting stronger and my marriage isn't great, so now I find myself at a crossroads.

Just keep talking about your feelings, whether on here or with a friend you trust, or even your SO. I've never told anyone I know, so forums like this are a great outlet for me. I can't talk to my wife about it. Bisexual is not in her vocabulary. You are either straight or gay.

 

What’s making you think you might be bi

 

You're not the first man to have the thoughts you've had over the years. While in my late 30's I too was being overwhelmed with thoughts of sucking another man's cock while masturbating to porn. I'd been married to her for 15 years and our sex life had dropped off significantly. Rather than deal with the drama of another woman I accepted a blowjob from another guy. It was great as I would stop by his house a couple times a week for hour long blowjobs to get my needed relief. After a couple weeks I got up the nerve to ask if I could suck his dick. It was something that had been on my mind for years but not able to execute. He made me feel so comfortable and at ease so when the moment was right, I took his cock into my mouth. It changed my entire outlook but I did struggle with thought's that I may be gay as sucking on his cock just felt so natural, normal, and provided me with pleasures I never had with my wife when our sex life was wild. For the last 12 years of our 25-year marriage I was hooking up with other married men in the same situation for mutual blow jobs. I'd evolved into a cock sucker "behind closed doors" and I was perfectly OK with that. I found myself much more at ease with other guys being I'd discovered a new skill I never knew I had. Just two guys getting together to suck each other's cocks. Friendships formed out of the curiosity of sucking dick. I'm remarried now and openly bisexual with her and she's perfectly fine with it. My first wife was the same as your wife is now. I'm not suggesting you do what I did, but if you do, you'll at least know whether it's something you enjoy or find repulsive. I think you'll find it to be very enjoyable as did the many other married guys I hooked up with over the past 25 years.