perfect

sometimes I want to be perfect so bad that it makes me retire to sweats, a joint and doing the opposite of what i would do if I were perfect. It's not like I want to be perfect looking or the smartest or anything but sometimes I get really depressed that I'm not the best, that I didn't win and award I applied for and even thoguh these aren't failures and I know that I'm not a failure they still contridict perfection and cause me to not do anything because I feel like I can't do it perfectly. Does this ever happen to you?

 

I know exactly what you mean, sometimes it can be quite upsetting that I'm not perfect. Or even maybe not perfect, but exactly how I want to be.

 

no, i cant relate to that at all
ive always been so far from perfect that i never formed a desire to be it

there are certain things that i get fustrated over because i cant accomplish them, but they arent forms of perfection.

i have no idea what it feels like to be 'the best' so maybe thats why i dont go after it.

 

I don't know what it's like to be the best either, and that in part is what upsets me..

 

Perfection is highly overrated. I like being me instead.

 

exactly that's exactly how i feel

 

lynsey, i have felt like this on and off through my whole life, iI really think everybody feels this way at time's, Just try to lighten up on yourself. Nobody out there is perfect, regardless of what some might like us to believe.

 

well, lynsey dont be so hard on yourself! i'm one to talk, i do it too....its because we can never be satisfied with what we've got. as soon as we achieve one thing, its no longer important. whats important is achieving the next and the next.

hey at least we're failing in style nice clothes and accessories help

 

No I don't mean conventialy perfect i mean the idea that you have for yourself to attain it's level of perfection. I've never nor will I be the best or even come close to any sort of any definition or any stretch of the imaginations version of perfect I just get upset that I don't try my best to get what i want sometimes and then win I don't win or don't get the results I want I get upset . thetimes I lose seem clearer then the times I win.

 

This kind of feeling about needing to be perfect is something you usually outgrow.

 

that's so true it's always the next thing. That's exactly what I meant.

 

i am perfect......it really is not that hard to do.....

 

well i guess i can compeltely relate now haha, thats how i feel too. i was misreading what you wrote.
you know when you dont do well on something and people say 'well at least you tried your best'...well i dont think ive ever tried my best at things, and thats whats fustrating.

 

me too I have a hard time trying my absolute best I can't focus on anything long enough to try my best.

 

everything i do is perfect........

 

Yeah, I don't think I've ever really tried my best either, I don't know why though...

 

How simple a definition of perfection you must have.

 

i don't even have to try to be perfect.....i just am...

 

I cannot walk on water. I tried.

 

no ....when you are god like.....it is just so simple to be perfect