Well.......I don't know where to begin this ending past in my life. But it started when (I will try to keep it simple) I was doing drugs oneday with my bestfriend and boyfriend and I started to feel extremely paranoid and I started praying then she said what I was thinking and since that day I have not been the same. I know ppl will judge me but I have to testify this truth. When I reached that high of feeling like people could read my mind it threw me off a bit. Well I dealt with that, seen docs got prescribed some meds, told I was fine until I went to my family home about a month ago. I had the certain numbers to follow me. I could not watch tv because It was talking to me and I could not control my thoughts, I would try my best not to think about haunting past or anything embarrising. Well I was doing pretty good walking around blinded by the truth, then I went to family house and it was true, in spite of what my close family said about that is not real blah blah blah ppl really knew what was going on in my head. I got extremely depressed and was not in my old routine of reality. I mean I feel like I am in this movie, everyone knows my reaction, my feelings, my thoughts. I get messages from my own poetry, words, numbers, tv, books etc. I started to have nightmares and would get this hot feeling from my head and my back and thought I was about to faint. I mean this is a true nightmare it seems but my family said that this is normal to think in a telepathic way. But why do I feel like the world is watching me? Why can't I posses these "talents" I also think to much and it bothers people. I need advice and no I don't want to hear about going to visit a doc because what I witnessed it the truth.
