ONE By IFR Content at an early age, or was i? things seamed so clear, any challenge was welcome The sky was the limit,full of dreams full of hope, the world a beautiful place, and the hurdles of life were lower For 2 years one had made me feel that nothing would ever be bad, one great life one plan Blinded by love, but happy Experiences were that much sweeter with one to hold my hand and experience with me from the blue skies and cultued lifestyles of Greece to my first intimate moment But without one i was nothing, no purpose No plan B, Past this love i could not see Now alone in darknes i sit Writing, My soul, my inner being destroyed One can give all, one can take all no ears to hear me now, no kindred spirits even the sky seams cloudier now as if to deny me the mystical light of the night sky Everything means nothing now the world's a tarnished place Searching for that one thing which will make me alive again But it doesnt exist now Everything i do is irrelavant My goals and dreams dont matter Without one i cannot see over the hurdles-Nor do i want to I am in the darkest place Filled with tormented souls Searching-Searching for answers But without questions Why? What am i supposed to do? this round hell maybe just that this is hell but what i have done to be here i do not know My best friends take away the pain Brown Blocks and liquid Help me forget But when thay are gone the truth is even clearer Why should i try? when i'm gone it wont matter But why do i cry? This lonely journey to nowhere Rain,Shine its all the same My head is f**ked, going insane My life- the tallest jenga tower and its my move I cant even explain it to myself help! What do i do? Where do i go? What path do i chose? Without one these questions remain unanswered ITs up to me now, but i'm too weak on the surface all is rosey Only i can see the thorns deeply embedded in my soul BUt i've never been a good gardener Each new thorn confuses me more where's my mouse? where is she? I need help, but i cant ask I cant explain there's just no words life is a dream at the moment its not real nothing excites me THe thing i search for is lost and found Now i sit here like a ghost Too deep to allow happiness in So afraid, so lonely, so confused Dazed in a sea of thought emotions blend together into one, I want to be but i'm only half now i dont exist Drifting through life, no purpose now this needs to stop! but how? HOW? Tired now,Need to sleep the only time i'm at peace is this the answer?? sleep for peace? Eternal sleep Pretty sweet!
I just read this again. I still love it. I've decided that this part is amazing to me: "even the sky seams cloudier now as if to deny me the mystical light of the night sky" There is something about that group of words... they start out just words, and you turn them into something worth so much more.
