Okay, I'm really not down anymore. I'm guessing that the anti-depressants have finally started working. Now I'm so chipper it's as though I've had a lobotomy, which is awesome. So I thought I'd write a cheesy little ditty about my cheesy new outlook. I Heart Prozac I love you my dears You bring me delight Three every morning And three every night I used to be sad And how I did cry But now I don't care There's no tear in my eye No more heartbreaks And no more lies I'm no longer a slut I've lost interest in guys Just me and my cat My rabbit and tv Books and me geetar Ain't no worries for me I feel so fabulous I am THE coolest girl Thank you, my drugs For fixing my world
so true your words to be whole in you in love or not is all you need to get through now... love n peace from saff be true to you
I have definitely never felt as good as I do now that I'm not preoccupied with boys. It's hard to understand why I ever cared in the first place. I'm so happy I just want to scream it out to everyone.
Happiness happiness however it's achieved? hmm Serotonin sings change my attitude so I don’t have to drugs make me happy itchy, depersonalized prescribed apathy herded individuality decaffeinated water, an apple a day, no way! my brain is insane purged, anorexic sexual appetite lacks vitamins and minerals natural sense of fear legally, profitably, disappeared: ignorance and fear in the clear just keep thinking happy thoughts do your job never mind obsessive compulsive seems redundant, take it away, Mr. Longfellow: Oh, fear not in a world like this, And thou shalt know erelong, Know how sublime a thing it is To suffer and be strong get back to work it’s just a side effect hyper tense panic heart attack but man I feel great I think I’ll kill myself should I come to my senses embrace the theory I am what I am attempt to abandon the plan the pill’s fail-safe is this: question not profits, patient, but rather your sanity
The poem, however cheesy it may be, is the truth. I was really against anti-depressants until I really hit bottom and they've changed my life. I can still feel things, I certainly still get sad, but at least I can get out of bed now.
ween's zoloft from quebec (or maybe the pod)... i'll post the lyrics, but you guys really need to dl it, its t3h funny, and from what ive read, kinda true... Gimme that z, o-l-o-f-t Gimme a grip, make me love me Suckin' 'em down, I'm happy man Can feel it inside, makin' me smile ...realize that the sky's not made of gold don't disguise the nature of your soul Gimme that z, o-l-o-f-t No longer pissed and you don't bother me I'm makin' it through, I'm givin' my all When base are loaded, I'm whacking the ball ...don't suck the mind, don't drain the source the path of life's not so easy to course, buddy give me that z, o-l-o-f-t (i cannot explain how im feeling inside) give me a grip, help me love me (just form a barrier round my brain) suckin em down, im happy man... (are you a monkey? or a man child?)
Electra my sis, I'm so glad you were able to find a drug that works for you. Depression is something that folks who have not experienced it cannot even begin to understand. As for the Ween lyrics above, I don't think you should let them offend you. I don't think that was Jack's intention. Like I said, if you have not been there you cannot understand (assuming that you were refrring to his post not the one above it). Take care and be proud and healthy sis. Don't let anything or anybody bring you down, you've spent anough time there. This is your time to shine hon! Many hugs and blessings from your brother you didn't know you had, Viv-
It wasn't like specific to the post or that I was really upset by it, but it is just like you said, if you haven't experienced it, you can't know. I just don't like the assumption people make that you lose your emotions and become basically a braying moron, that you're better off being depressed because it gives you character or something. But oh well. Also, I still hate Seattle because of the situation with my friend there, but I have to admit that it's a pretty nice place. I'm obsessed with pirates so I was thrilled to find an entire store dedicated to them at pike place. And my god, mountains everywhere you look. I almost died from the sheer beauty. I did think the states were a little strange though. I may go back for my birthday in a month if I'm lucky.
