no title its live

I usually hand write poetry in my book of poetry, but i feel compelled just to type + not remember, but it is here.. + spontanious as is happening ..

Tears flow from my eyes upon my wrists as I type,
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not only on the backs of my arms but upon the top of my thighs + upon the chair. A glass I feel in my hands with cider numbing my brain from the problems in life.
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I feel empty, can life continue this way? Why is love so difficult?
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I listen now to Animatronic by 'the Kovenant' with headphones + it is the only thing keeping me going apart from a love that I feel in my heart.
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A thunderstorm is gathering outside here now in england + as the thunder rumbles + as the wind blows the darkness falls + as sure as my tears flow the rain will fall.
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a child goes by on a motorised scooter + is enjoying himself as all children do, what happened to the innoncence that I felt as a child? If I open my heart + being I can experience those happy memories with my very being in my heart, but what has greed for oil + power done to this planet?
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Corruption + greed holds us back + pollution fills the skies, will these f*n poloticians EVER learn by their mistakes? Even in the house of commons they read pre-written scripts, so whom pulls their strings?
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Life is a gift + is to be treasured + I like life, but seeing all the bad that I have, how long can I hold onto my tearful loving hope that things will get better + that corruption + greed will go away to free us all?
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My live hearts thoughts I have shared with you all.
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Love be to all.

HC

 

Wow HC Thats like some Deep stuff there! Does it feel better to get it out and on "paper"?

 

well, its out here in cyber space lol. + yeah, I like venting or I would go insane Wahahahaha . hippie love to you BD + yeah, I might add to this thread of real life in the future. + I will probably transcribe it to my book of poems etc when I feel ok to do that for the time capsule if I don't have any kids. But Kat did make me feel better tonight as she really does have healing powers as U know lol


Hippie huggs to you BD + I know U could have healed me too :sunglasse .

 

Yup thats my girl Im looking forward to reading more of you poetry and rants(LOL)

 

Tears of human kind

Tears flow upon my cheeks , passings come upon which I do not greet , even though I know what I know, how do I cope with physical passings? Physical forms do be left behind, but the spirit form does survive.
I know not of what I speak, but I do know certain things I speak, grief is horrible, love is best, love can last forever + more.
Why do we have to suffer the turmoil of passings of loved ones?
Even though they are around, sadness is to be bound.
Rob x

 

the untitled live piece was fantastic... could really feel it flying along in wonderous spontaneous flow, yet maintaining crisp images and well worded, strong emotions. A great piece of work, thanks for sharing

 

Thanx fulmah + I hope you + others experience some more of the live mirrorball reflections + emotions from my being as they emerge from me as a whole from time to time.

Some maybe happy, some maybe sad, but when it all comes down to it, its all live + true. Peace be with you all .

 

Our hearts unite, thankyou Saffy, a tear falls from my eye but a kiss I send to your cheek and I ask in my heart that we all may join most of this part of the Galaxy in universal peace. Love and peace be to all.

 

Decision Time
HC

I’ve had a wife quite a long time,
In the 80’s as pen-pals we met so its been quite a time.
What is the matter I hear you ask?
My wife is from + is now back on the opposite side of the planet is the reply.

Many years of us being together, 24/7 if you must know,
Accept for a few hours a week when I saw my parents alone.

About 2 weeks ago, she did leave for up to 7 months to see her family
But also to decide, Something we feared all the time since when we 1st met.

Which country should we live in? We tried both but now the time has arrived.

I can’t live and do not like there as we have already tried.
She does not like here much either so you hear our cries.

She is deciding if she wants a life there,
I am deciding if I can take life at all anymore.

We still love each other and miss each other,
But a hard decision has to be made…
And now is that time.

Friends and family tell me to shine,
Do not cry, just build a new life if the final decision is split.

But when one as gone through what we have,
And me like her, going straight from living with our parents
In our latter teens to being husband and wife.
Can I live alone? Can She?
I know I’m not built for living alone.

It’s VERY hard effort every day for me to try to shine,
But I do try and hope for the best.

 

hi there my god what are you doing to yourself man...

what a whirl wind of love to choose a life with or without
if you are really looking inside yourself you must see the
feeling of {do you really want to lose this.}or are you ready to face the
outcome....of being not with your wife..

it must be hard to let go of this life,to enjoy the next.
so its been along time you have been together
seems like forever. maybe you questioning this
means its time to move on..
who am i to say this man...
i know i look to the skies with in this life
i live.
my heart reaches to you for at this moment
the loniness is only being onyour own
but around we are all here.not much to offer
you think..but what do you feel...rob.
i feel life is in my hand you hold the key
to your heart and mind.dont act before
you understand this reason.maybe you both grew
apart,and the chain of a relationship marrige is hard to brake
to leave yet to move forward is sometimes\
is the best thing to do
you say you never been living alone
maybe this will scare you maybe it will
be the opening of a door to you yourself
how you are now,not the moment you fell in love
but the moment you realized this had to change.
please ignore this bluntness ,i am worried you on a pth
of not knowing what to do...
hold on to your head and choose how to get through
this painfull change love never dies it just has to have time
to move on...if you feel this then go for it .
if your love can get you through this move then
you shall move with your wife

this is all ihave to offer
words calling to your inner soul
be free from hating life
love life and make a choice
i will listen..
love to you
from saff
dont give up on life just because you and your wife are seeing
different skies,,,,

 

I see a path, on late I came back on tonight,
to spill a little of my guts,

YES you are right, with my wife I shall be alright, but maybe not as I do see,
my wife can be a credit card fiend.
I have grown up + accepted responsibility,
but nag nag nag she says from the other side of the planet at what MUST be.
She says she will try, she says she will try, but trying is NOT DOING. So I do cry.
I miss her so + I have weeped, but when it comes to love, we are one, but responsibility I have accepted, but can she? I think not. But I give her the benefit of the doubt
A path I have found to try to be debt free, I try my best to be free. But with love I wish with her that shall last, as do we both as a long time we have been. But shall she grow up to responsibility?
Saffy is not blunt, + neither is Katy, they speak their hearts + I know what must be.
But do I have the strength to face to face, to cut up a credit card in my wives face?
In financial trouble we do be, but I took on life now with responsibility. After years of dreams I woke up.
But can she? Can she?
We DO want to be together, but she wants to move, but nowhere here can we move. We still have a debt upon our heads + explain I do to her that that must be gone from the past before we can move forth.

 

I know that you know that everything always work out, and in the meantime, sometimes we are lucky enough to find a permanent hug to share that helps us keep holding on until it does.

 

Love, it can heal as well as hurt. stand still + let your thoughts be still and once more may a light befall upon you to show you where your path does lay within your life. But choices + effort do have still to be made. Some things come, somethings go, but in our incarnations, we do grow.

 

listen to your own heart to find the compromise....

as you grow those around you grow too
but they themselves have their own paths
which cross with many others....


if you feel the need to change something within
your worlds then do so with all parties
being open and able to tell each other how and where
you both would like to be and go for your futures
to be as one ....

i hope this situation eases soon
and as for money debt then
it goes where you go ...it will pass
you will be able to find a way to pay this back
and in the future you will see that its ok
to change or even question why

but for now my love goes to you both
give it time to heal but make sure you
live no lies....this will only cause pain...

love n peace from saff..
ps be whole

 

Lies we have never had , only the truth has been, and that last posting was in general and not just about my situation my dear saffy . A lie can build another lie + cause more until ones mind implodes, so as you said, it is good to be open and truthfull as then no one can even think of blackmailing one of truth. Live life with love + truth + even though we have agreed challenges in life. Once we stand still + let our minds still, a light shines + a path shall become clear.

The debt, I am trying my best with + hope that it can be solved. But I do accept my part of the responsibility of it. + try I will so solve the problem. £15000 might not sound much to some, but to me, its YEARS of repayments. But I have a clarity in my mind, + responsibility I take in my life. + doing the best I can I shall. Even if I fail I can say that I did my best which is what a mortal can only do. But I have my mindset on success + try hard I do

I am on the mend + restoring myself as a whole, I do give you a hug + may your being as a whole become true, strong + let the wisdom, awareness + the light be with you

 

+ my treasure Kat.. I felt something + had to come back online but to bed now. My lass, the hug + hearts are combined

+ as for poetry, you just don't think about it, all you do is switch your mind off + words flow like a river, it is just there my hug mistress . Thus this thread, No title, its LIVE . + welcome back .

( + no Katy is not my wife ).

 

' Fear is but a distraction, + love can hurt as well as heal, but live your life with an open heart + the truth shall be yours '. ' For better or for werse. no matter what, do thy best in life + your heart + being as a whole shall be whole + pure '.

 

hi there

love is all we live to feel and to love also

money i have to say.. well i have a few grand to sort
but never got in to much trouble i wouldnt turn to
spending to feel happy you see
but i know it takes time to pay back...

and you seem to want to do this so go for it
each day the debt will lower and you both will feel
better when it is cleared.....

just aim for your wholeness
good luck ......

good for you man be responsible for your actions
as for your wife also....this will be all you need to do
for each other really...
and the honesty you speak of will hold you both together
if your hearts are real....

love to you both \
dont worry your life and love away over money either
it doesnt hold you close when you need a hug...
and at the end of the day when you shut your doors
what you have right that moment is all you really need,,,,
the love for eachother,if this is stronge then not more tears
should fall.. many a pths we all cross but the path you stumble
on is for a reason

to wake you up.....
love n peace as always dear friend..
from saff.........
thats how it works ......

 

It took this holiday of hers + trial sort of seperation to make me more wise,
But I still cry alone at night sometimes.

But, yes, I have woken up but like I previously said,
I hope that she has and that things will change for the better.

Only time shall tell, but whatever,
I will hopefully have my head together 100% to deal with the outcome
of what is to come

Love + peace to all