New and just Finding myself sexually

First time I am ever talking about this so I am nervous and not sure what to say.

I'm a 32 year old wife of 7 years to a husband I love but the past couple years we have been in a rut. My doing not his. I have just been ashamed of my body and not worthy. I broke my arm and in a response to pain tried edibles (more on how this has effected many aspects of my sexual awakening). I felt better and this sexual feeling kept growing in me. I couldn't have sex because of the break and one night I just didn't care (pain and consequences from that). For the first time in a long time the sole focus was me and I totally let go of it all. I feel like these are feelings I should have felt as a teenager. I masterbated to climax myself for the first time. I just feel ashamed and sad that I missed out on years of knowing myself because I was afraid.

 

Your only 32. You have a great sex life in front of you ifyou want it. I'm twice your age and im now going through more sexual changes and curiosities that I didn't look into earlier in life. I'm sure your husband is going to love the new you. Let it go and enjoy

 

I agree be open minded and enjoy, no pressures