Hey Everyone, new here and just looking for a place to be comfortable with who I am and have always been. I am in my 20's and have finally come to terms with my bisexuality after being ashamed of it for so long. I grew up in a super conservative house and at a very early age, I used to love wearing panties because they made me feel sexy. Well I was told it was wrong and that men needed to be a certain was, so I had to such it up and be in secret. I have always attracted to women, and have always dated women, so I knew I wasn't gay, I just thought there was something wrong with me, and that I didn't think like most other straight guys. Of course, my first sexual experience was in my early teens, and it was with my friend at a sleepover. We waited until his parents went to bed to play a game of truth or dare. Eventually we were both naked and started playing together, both of our young penises rock hard in each other's hands. We rubbed them together, put them in our mouth, and even tried to have sex, but it hurt when he pressed up against the entrance to my young teen butthole. I don't think either of us were able to cum, but we had a ton of fun, and did it again a few months later.... Fast forward to college, I had been with several women and was in between relationships when I was wanting to try more. I met this beautiful trans on a dating app, and we finally got to hook up. I got her naked and went right for her cock, sucking it as much as I could, and then licking her tight hole, she reciprocated of course, then I topped her until we both shot our huge loads, her on her chest, and me in her bum. It was magic. We would continue to have sex for a few months, engaging in my first threesome with her and another guy, and it was there that I learned I loved to bottom too. We all took turns in each other, and eventually both her and him left their loads in my ass. That's when I really knew I was bi, but I felt ashamed of it after every encounter, always afraid my family or friends would find out about my thirst for cock and disown me. It's that very thing that I feel keeps me from fully enjoying myself when I have sex with men, as I never feel like that with women. I love having fun with both, and I just want to feel secure in who I am. Thanks for listening
It took me a few years to accept my bisexuality was normal for me. I got a late start in my late 30's and felt guilty after every cock i sucked, swearing never to do it again. And a month later would hook up with another man. I dated women during this time and prefer women for a relationship and sex with them. However, for pure lust, I want a cock to suck.
You're not alone JD. Many of us grew up within the very same style household and standards regarding how/what men and women should be, act, and like. I began my desire for cock around the age of 30 while married to a woman and the hunger grew stronger after each encounter. I loved her and women in general but had this under lying lust and hunger for cock. I continued for almost 20 years secretly having mutual oral with other married men during that 25 year marriage. We divorced for reasons unrelated and I felt not just hurt but lost as well as I dated women but still had the overwhelming desire to suck cock. Then I meet my present wife (7 years now) whom I shared my past experiences and continued desires for cock. She was remarkably accepting and understanding to it all. She actually thought it was sexy dating a man whom enjoy sucking cock as much as she did. We presently have a relationship with another m/f bisexual couple and I'm no longer secretly hiding my desires as my wife and I are physically sharing sexual experiences together with another man and woman. I was lucky to have found her and she's a terrific lover whom allows, supports, and appreciates my openness of having sex with another man from time to time. I'm his bottom which my wife (who's been pegging me) thinks is the sexiest act she's ever witnessed while she sucks my cock as he's fucking me in the ass. All four of us share 1-on-1 sex, 3 somes, and numerous times four somes and life is so wonderful as both our marriages have truly bonded tighter and better since we've all met.
JDRush21, All that shame, guilt and fear - that shit kills us bisexual guys. Closets kill us by degrees. As for feeling more secure, may I recommend a good book? ”The Ethical Slut” by Hardy and Eastman. https://www.amazon.com/Ethical-Slut...ywords=The+ethical+slut&qid=1588110022&sr=8-2 This book really helped me develop a sexual philosophy of honesty and openness. I prefer the 1st edition. You can find it on BitTorrent sites.
Kind of been there almost. Is that clear enough for you? Lol About the only thing I can recommend to you is to embrace your bisexuality. Something led you to a trans person, which was a slippery slope that led you to a night involving a cis male. You took it up the butt from both of them and you loved it. Own that shit! Don't let years of arbitrary suppression deny your pleasure. Fight strongly against the internalized homophobia and all the false, unnatural, counterproductive values it has inflicted on you. You enjoyed your new experiences and you have every right to. The guilt you're feeling afterwards is an illusion. It will slowly go away as you slowly come to the emotional realization that this is not a bad thing, and in fact it's good. Rock some sexy panties. Try some panty hose or thigh highs. Show yourself off wearing them to friends who might appreciate it, or if it's not your thing walk around by yourself and indulge in some sexiness, or wear them under your clothes and keep a kinky secret to yourself. Be free and be happy! No one else is obligated to know. You're not harming anyone. In fact you're harming yourself if you suppress your attractions. Remember, you're allowed to like guys, you're allowed to like being with guys, and you're allowed to make others mind their own business.
I'm starting to accept the fact that I love both women and men. Recently cock and cum have surrounded me and I really can't get enough. Its hard sometimes being your self but being free and true to yourself is what we need in this world.
I hope you have been able to accept your attraction to and love of sex with men, or people with cocks, during these last 18 months since you have last logged in. I realize you probably won't read this, but I'm still putting the wish out there for you to have at least reduced the internalized homophobia that so many of us, perhaps all of us, have experienced--and to some extent still do. Heck, it took me until just six months ago, when I was 59, to accept and fully love the life long gay side of myself, which has turned out to have been 90% of myself all along. After 30 years of sex with well over 200 men, and struggling to find sex and love with women all my life, I now in fact no longer have any interest in having a long-term relationship with a woman, and probably not even casual sex with a woman, but only interested in men for sex and love. I'm still looking for that long-term lover, if not boyfriend, that I very much want (I'm so tired of the one night stands, let alone the countless anonymous cocksucking encounters), but I'm so happy to finally fully accept my enjoyment of everything that is another man. It's no longer just his cock, and later his ass, but it's his whole body, smooth or hairy, his face, lips, and eyes, his feelings, his mind, and his wishes and desires! In other words, it's everything I thought I always loved in a woman, but it's now with a man, with men, and the feeling of that freedom is beyond description.
