Before i say anything i just want it to be known that i am 21, not that physical age has anything to do with what i am about to say So recently i have been going through alot of changes in pretty much all aspects of my life and these changes have really caused me to look at things in a diffreent light. To list some of the major ones 1) relizing my home life wasn't the perfect little fantasy i had created in my head 2) relizing that i am going to have to grow up and no one is going to do that for me 3) relazations of what who my true friends are and 4) the relazation of how everything changes and nothing will stay the same. In light of these in events and many others i have become much mroe anxious, i used to be the care free easy going dont woory about anything type. Now i seem to be the exact opposite worrying about every little thing and i am constantly anxious not to mention i seem to be in a constant state of self analazation and self reflection. On top of all this i seem to be seeing all thing around me in a totally different manner, for example the other day i was smokeing with one of my buddies from high school, and right as the high set in i got this feeling that i was seeing people for their mental maturity rather than their physical maturity. Almost everyone in the room to me gave of the impression of a young teen or child even. I have been having alot of these types of experiences recently, and although they can be very insightful all of these things are also making me extremly anxious. What i was wondering is basically what is going on with me, i know i need to look for the answers myself but a lil help from people who have been there is always helpful Thank you so much for your time Much love -Dis
All I can say is that change is constant. Start seeking out others who will be supportive of your growth. Now for some Ancient wisdom. Remember impermenance. Nothing is forever. To me this is at the same time a frightening and reassuring concept. Frightening because it made me realise I bought into this illusion that it was going to last forever. Reassuring because ehn things are going to hell I know it won't last forever. When things are going right I enjoy them more because I realize that they won't last forever. Peace Out, Rev J
I recently quit doing drugs and experienced a similiar effect. all my friends were stuck, staying still in life. i went out met some new friends whom i feel more connected too. as far as your anxiety goes try meditating. besides for anxiety/stress relief you can also experience highs that you never dreamed of. ive done a number of drugs combined in many differant ways, the highest i ever was was when i was dry and meditated into a high. peace n love
