Ive found my self having to make some choices about my future of late and would love some input from anyone who could help. I have the opportunity to graduate college a little earlier than I expected, but I feel like Im kind of taking the easy way out by doing so I would end getting a BA instead of a BFA...But I feel so suffocated staying in school... I also have a strange kind of connection with someone I dont see often, it seems mutual... but I dont know what its all about...Why its happening and if its a sign of something stronger to come... does anyone have any insight into those things? just to broaden my thoughts and intuition on the matter.... Thanks so much. Sasha
Dear Sasha, Your intelligence shines beyond reason into intimate, poetic balancing. Embrace this joy. You will find more than you expect. Continue educating yourself via. that which really draws you. Perhaps a play, living what you have learned, some books that you have saved. Buy your love some flowers. Allow yourself to soar into walks in the woods. Then return when you are ready for graduate school. My 6-cents. Namaste & Bright Blessings, Live your Bliss ~*
I'm wondering where this "easy way out" idea is coming from... If is it some form of guilt for having changed your mind about what you want, remember that everything changes, you are no exception. Why do you feel suffocated in school? Are you impatient, or are you being somehow stifled by the influences you are coming into contact with? When your doubts eat at you, consider the 'temptation' that you feel. Temptation is a great tool. It is intuitive and will tell you quickly if what you are considering is something harmful which will work against your bliss rather than with it. Many succumb to the lure of self-harm, there is something almost hypnotic which compells some people to do things which they know will hurt them (as if they somehow feel that they don't deserve bliss). Thinking your temptations through is a very quick process; an intuitive leap of extrordinary vision, if you know how to pay attention to it, and it will tell you if the compulsion you feel will lead you toward bliss or toward self-harm. Open yourself to the path which will lead you to bliss and away from self-harm. Such a path may seem meandering to you, moving one way and then another, but once you know if what you truly feel is right, then stop wasting time doubting and second guessing yourself. Simply do it. Adapt to the changes as they come. Reality is liquid, it has tides and curents and waves. You can ride these waves as you wish if you stop hesitating and simply connect with what you know to be right. Surf reality. All of life is an endless struggle to keep your energy at a comfortable level. Energy always proceeds from a higher order to a lower order unless work is expended to maintain it. Find your level of comfort and then keep it there. Life never stops and neither will your struggle. You may take brief respite but you will find that you need to make up for it later. For most people, it is easier to work ahead in your maintainence (briefly raising and storing energy above your comfort level before resting and using the stored energy to take up the slack, then resume when your energy level has dropped to your comfort level) than it is to let it drop below your level of comfort and then try to pull it back up. The reason fo this is simple: When your energy is at your comfort level or higher, you are happy and it is easier to continue generating more energy, but when your enery level is below your comfort level, then you will become depressed, you will tire easier, need to rest more often and find even maintaining your current lower level of energy difficult. It can become a downward spiral, and is probably best avoided. There are those few who thrive on erratic jumps of energy, letting things slide til the last moment then suddenly bursting into a flurry and raising energy in a quick push, but these people are rare and tend to be comfortable at lower levels of energy to begin with. If it is a sign of something stronger to come, you will find out soon enough. Keep yourself on the path to bliss and expect nothing. If this person's path crosses or begins to run parallel to your own, it will happen of it's own accord. You can't push these things. If this connection is a step along your path to bliss, you will know it intuitively and by following your bliss the relationship will take you where you need to be. I make no claim to be psychically attuned. I have intuitive flashes and I trust them. My commentary is merely that intuition as seen through the lens of my life and it my not apply to your own, but I felt an intuitive compultion to respond to you, for what it's worth. I wish you well.
One more important note. Living is active. By that measure, not doing anything is still doing something (it is waiting).
the question is what u plan to do with your degree.. will the BFA improve your job prospects over the BA? if so then it might be worth sticking it out for a little longer.. it all depends on where u see your life heading though and what u want to do with life. personally.. I'd advocate staying at college for as long as u can. life will catch up with you soon enough and u might as well take as much time as u can before u have to join the grind of making a living in society. it all depends on how much u enjoy college of course. I loved when I was at uni and would do it all again in a flash. as for your strange connection? reach out and explore it . who knows where it will lead? we find love and relationships in the strangest of placest. the thing is to be open to all life experiences and u never know what joys will come your way! live and love well .
