Hello All, I am a 46 year old male. I live a mainly straight life.No one around me would think that I have any doubts about me being straight. I am here as I am finally coming to terms with what I have known since I was a child… I am gay. Wow it feels so good and makes my heart race to type that and post this. Over the past years I have come to realize more and more about my sexuality. I have always felt shame. I have always had desires to be with men and have been with some guys. Every time I have loved every minute of it but after I would feel shame. I would still feel shame if I was with the same guy more than once. The last time I was with a man sexily I cried out “GOD I LOVE SEX WITH A MAN!”. That was nine years ago and I still think about that in the shower so to speak. I feel like I can’t keep it locked away anymore. I want more now and when I say that I want to talk with other gay men, I want to find a connection. Talk to other people who might have had some of the same experiences as I have or am going to go through with this journey. Hopefully I find new friends here and a safe place.
