**my husband is mad at me cause who i hang out with***

he's always been live and let live and so have i to him.

now all the sudden he's judging people i hang out with and getting mad when they are over here. me and some of my best smoked and they were gonna crash here. having probs. where they were staying.. i figured, im leaving all early for the beach id just take them then. be safer. he's all "why do you wanna do that? blah blah"

everytime im with certain people- usually we just smoke and he always thinks we're doing worse. its terrible. its like if i do whatever else ill tell you you dumbass.

whatever.
i got 40 mins. of peace.

 

no... for real. he freaked out. scared my friends cause they could hear him. he was like "I'LL TAKE THEM HOME WHEN I GET HOME AT 1"

dude CHILL.

wtf.



for real.... here, have an ativan. just SHUT UP.



he called me a dipshit too. i was so high and had the giggles cause he's SOOO RIDICULOUS that you cant HELP it. I was like "why are you calling me that? i mean for real... just why?

anyways gotta go chat.

yar

 

When a guy suddenly feels he needs to control you, it’s because he feels he’s being pushed around by others and has lost any semblance of control he may have had over his own life


Hotwater

 

hahaha this is a goofy post. It starts off seeming like it's one of your friends joining into a convo that your first post started, then it goes from there. haha

Anyway, it sounds like he's just being a dipshit.

 

It's probably because they're junkies or pill addicts.

I'm only guessing here though.

 

Yeah that is exactly why, Pavel. Just wish he'd just a LITTLE faith in me. Espiecially when my good friend jess who is a junkie n gets sick... she's not even doing it anymore. she took 10 mills of oxy but she's been sick for days... barely felt it...anyways when my friends are making an effort....

and i say it'll be best to drive them after i sleep....why the FUCK you gonna make me drive them back when i said im sick, tired, and stoned.. 25 mins away on backroads.

just whatever.

and brian? what. i wont know if both jess's can go til like almost before i go. they are both probably yes's but whatever. ill be happy no matter what.

 

Yeah...if it were any other time, I'd think he might be a little controlling, but seeing as you're trying to kick some pretty strong addictions, he's likely just trying to look out for your best interests in the long run. He loves you and doesn't want to see you fall again.

 

I'd have the same reaction if I was your husband.

...and if I ever found out about TNS, I'd wait for you to cheat on me, divorce you on the spot, and take everything I possibly could away from you never to talk to you again.

But hey... that's just me.

 

thanks.



i do agree with you and rubin. to an extent, i think he does somethings in anger/revenge and it's lame but i think he looks out for me and worries. which is truly nice.

i just wish he'd listen to me when i tell him people that i DO consider my friends, and i give it a long time often to say friend and not just chillen with... well this girl is doin good. real good.. we might smoke but she's stayin away from stuff. i just wish he'd allow me to help her, encourage her and put a tiny bit of faith in me instead of always jumping to conclusions and such.

 

Yeah, a friend like that might be a good friend for you indeed, because I imagine withdrawals and all that are hard enough on your own, but if you had someone to empathize with and talk to, it could really help. Have you tried explaining that to him?

 

i wish that bowing down smilie worked. thanks ramona.


yeah i mean it could be a good thing, friends wanting to make positive changes, reinforecement and that's how it's been lately....

When i tell him that i dont know if he believes me but i dont play like this. when im real you know im real or im really hurt.

 

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well, that's some real shit.

 

btw.

waves *brian*

im not gonna cheat. im gonna be seperated AT LEAST before i do shit.

thank you ganja queen.:cheers2:

 

Yeah it would be kinda difficult, considering I'm gonna be living in your apartment. lol

 

I dont know much about your situation with your husband,TNS...BUT I think is just as bad to be making plans to be with someone else while being married. Actually, I think is worse than going out and cheating with some random guy. So much premeditation and being false about our emotions. Maybe it's not how I think it is and we all have our reasons to do what we do, This is just my opinion.

 

what a disaster.

 

If you've got plans to live with somebody else, why the fuck don't you just split from this man who is so ruining your life?

What is stopping you? You are being neither honest with yourself nor him.

 

Exactly my thoughts.

Even if you dont have plans to live with someone else, when you know it's over, there's no need to extend it until things get worse.

 

I think my IQ just dropped after reading this...