Yeah so my grandma was seriously like a parent to me, i know that might sound gay but she was. She lived with me for 7 years, and she died from emphazima(sp?) and lung cancer. What pisses me off was she was a great person but she had to die in such a horrible way you know, with oxegen tubes in her nose and pretty much having flem come out of her mouth in a constant flow for a day. And what was really wierd was when she died, my parents woke me up and when i saw her, i swear to god she was still breathing, swear to god. I tried showing my parents but they didnt believe me. I dont know but i had a really hard time accepting her dieing, and i guess it was my mind or something. i guess im just strange.
I don't know for sure, but I think I can relate to your feelings. I've lost all my grandparents except for my mom's dad, and my own Father. It sucks, but death is in hand with life. I'm sure she would rather have you being happy remembering the good times, then dwelling on her passing. How about a good 'ol Irish Wake?
I'm so, so sorry to hear that. Please forget all the "men don't cry" bullshit, if you feel it will help you, you cry, ok? We are all with you in our toughts, and I'm sure your grandma is watching over you from somewhere. And honey, now you have an angel to take care of you, remember that when it gets really bad. You're not alone.
My grandpap died of the same illness about a month ago and i know exactly what your going through. He also died with oxygen on him, and man he was soo sick it was horrible, he would see people in his room (relatives that have already died) he couldnt even get up to walk or even talk for that matter. It was no way to live and he had been very sick for 2 yrs from that. So when he died it was like a wierd relief for us because we were glad that he was not suffering anymore, those last months were horrible for him and nobody should hafto live like that. I really miss him and it was horrible having to let go, but just realize that she is not miserable anymore. that was what brought me peace is knowing that there is no more suffering. And definately try to focus on the happy moments you had when she wasnt as sick, its hard for me to remember my grandpap before his illness, but the memories are starting to come back now and it makes me happy.
Hey Wind cries Paul... To lose a grandma..or someone one loves... it hurts...Paul..your Grandma is not dead... she's in your heart...and lives on in your memory... tiger
The one thing i want when i die is to have my grandson remember me...She's gotta be sending you good vibes.Love lives on.
Thanks everybody, i guess this is the reason i joined hipforums, its because people here are so nice and caring. Thanks for your thoughts. I really appreciate all of you guys.
I can't say anything to make you feel better . . . but maybe now knowing that all these people know about your Grandmother and how special she was, will help you feel more peace. Look how many other people will remember her now, with you. This thread made me cry...
so sorry to here this........my deepest condolenses to you ...........now your grandma is suffering no more and is watching over you .
accepting the death of a loved one is always very hard. believe it or not i know how it feels. im sure you will get through this tough time. just hang in there
:Hug:Meow...keep her with you in your heart and memories.Think of the good times you shared together.
That's so true...sometimes, you'll even feel her around you. I am so sorry about your loss sweetie. I know it's tough, but you'll be able to think about the good times before you know it. It's very traumatic seeing someone you love that much suffering and in pain. She really is around you, you just can't see her. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Time will heal your pain, I promise.
You know what they say man 'dont worry, be happy'. Hold on to all the good memories and keep her in your mind. Life is a never ending ride, theres just no safety harnesses.
